Jesus, Suzi. I'm so sorry. Fuck cancer indeed.

Very sorry, Suzi.

Judge Shelby opted not to put a stay on marriages in Utah (not surprising as he issue the first ruling, I guess). So now the 10th District Court has to weigh in. In the meantime, gay marriages for all who want them!

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Utah's AG's request for a stay of the same-sex marriages that are currently taking place has been denied. Though my own county's County Clerk is refusing to issue licenses because he wants to see what the next judicial jurisdiction up says to the request for a stay that's heading to Denver now. Other County Clerk office are swamped.

The state's argument for the stay: the people getting married will have their lives harmed when their marriages are invalidated when the state finally gets its way and can stop this outrage from continuing. So because the state cares about those families' pain, they want to stop them from getting married.

Oh thank goodness -- some people are already sneaking out of the office. It's a fine line between sitting around not-working and looking like a slacker when you have no reputation to rest on.

We were sent home an hour early through the benevolence of our Director, hooray! Now if this headache would just go away I could enjoy the holiday. Although being home with a headache is already better than being at work with a headache.

I just picked up my car from the shop. Almost three thousand dollars of damage but I just had to pay a $500 deductible.

The damage was confined to the bumper and grill, plus a radiator bracket.

I live in the most conservative part of Utah, where the County Clerk is refusing to grant any marriage licenses. I've been slightly nervous of local reactions.

But across the cubicle wall, a girl is saying, "Oh, my sister got married today!" "She was able to get in?" said another girl. "Yes, we heard about it on Friday, but she and Susan couldn't get to the office in time. I'm so sad I missed it, it's so sweet!"

My neighbors can pleasantly surprise me.

Nunya is sitting next to me on the couch stuffing her face in my armpit. I think she knows I'm going away for a few days. I wish I could take them with me, but between their poor traveling tolerance, and then way too many crazy animals at my folks place, I'd rather they have some abandonment anxiety and J stopping by to check on them.

The brother called. He didn't know I'd delayed coming up a day (didn't get to sleep until 2am, wonder why). He asked if I knew what had happened, Yes, told him I'd smack him upside the head when I saw him, he said Good, he needed it (it's easy this way, but it's all pretend, he always knows the right things to say to be contrite and acknowledge that he's fucked up and will endeavor to do better). I asked him how he was doing. Outwardly he's not as broken up as I expected, but he's good at hiding that, too.

Apparently the wedding isn't off, his fiance just wants him to get his shit together. Wedding is in June. I think there's something wrong with the fiance, some willful denial that she was shocked, Simply Shocked!, that he had such a severe drinking problem, when my mom could tell on the phone with him at one point, with K the fiance in the background, that he was drunk.

Now mom is wondering if it's too enabling to help them with the mortgage for six months (and only six months). Because it's not just my brother who's going down with this, it's also K. And I wonder (I have no idea what her mental state is to have been with him through all the shit he's already put her through) if she needs this to hit rock bottom for her as well so she can make a "clean" break from him.

But maybe her brand of nuttiness and loyalty is what big bro needs. I'd been proud of him for awhile for pulling his shit together, my own personal RDJ. But he's had the girl and the house for awhile now, and she hasn't fixed him, or been willfully aware of any problems that she could have tried to "fix", and I don't see that it's healthy that he's with a girl who thinks he can be fixed in time for a June wedding, and maybe it's best for him for the relationship to fail and break him away from a cliched relationship.

IDEFK.