A big part of my therapy time these days is talking about how much I still want my parents to forgive me for making them so angry at me.
Zoe: What's that, sir? Mal: Freedom, is what. Zoe: No, I meant what's that? Mal: Oh. Yeah. Just step around it. I think something must've been living in here.
'Out Of Gas'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Tom Scola - Feb 11, 2014 5:15:13 am PST #9078 of 30002
Remember that the frontier of the Rebellion is everywhere. And even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward.
Aims - Feb 11, 2014 5:19:00 am PST #9079 of 30002
Shit's all sorts of different now.
That's exactly it, Steph. Between her wailing and screaming and that stupid jangle, I was transported back to being 9 years old, and little, and in pain, and being confused about what was happening and ugh.
I'm all emotion-hungover this morning. I have some coffee and banana nut muffins and maybe my hate-watch (thanks, smonster for that phrase - I love it.) of VM season 3 will help me get regulated.
msbelle - Feb 11, 2014 5:20:16 am PST #9080 of 30002
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb
I want to wrap you all in warm emotionally safe comfort blankets.
Aims - Feb 11, 2014 5:20:36 am PST #9081 of 30002
Shit's all sorts of different now.
A big part of my therapy time these days is talking about how much I still want my parents to forgive me for making them so angry at me.
t points and nods
I still feel like the reason my parents were so sick is because I caused it, somehow. Of course, having my therapist tell me that it was my fault when I was 8 didn't help that particular schema.
Steph L. - Feb 11, 2014 5:28:42 am PST #9082 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
A big part of my therapy time these days is talking about how much I still want my parents to forgive me for making them so angry at me.
Boy, do I get that. Hard. Or wanting my mom to forgive me for being selfish enough to want her home instead of out partying most nights in the post-divorce years.
msbelle - Feb 11, 2014 5:33:01 am PST #9083 of 30002
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb
AS A CHILD YOU WERE NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR THE UNCONTROLLED EMOTIONS OF YOUR PARENTS! THEY WERE THE G-D GROWN-UPS!
msbelle - Feb 11, 2014 5:34:51 am PST #9084 of 30002
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb
I am not yelling at you all. I am yelling at the world. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE. Also? PUPPIES..
I will go find pictures.
Everyone gets the magic blankets and a lap to lay down in so your hair can be smoothed while soothing coos are made in your general direction. The stuff you should have gotten as kids.
Aims - Feb 11, 2014 5:35:09 am PST #9085 of 30002
Shit's all sorts of different now.
Well, fine -- If you want to be all logical and non-dysfunctional.
t hugs msbelle, hard, for being just plain awesome
msbelle - Feb 11, 2014 5:39:54 am PST #9086 of 30002
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb
Please know I worry myself sick that the times I have lost it with mac have scarred him for life. This is why you all sharing with us is so important and probably more important than us wrapping you all in love. There is so much strength in you sharing. There is power in you all letting it out. It helps countless others and you are heroes.
sj - Feb 11, 2014 5:41:09 am PST #9087 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
I want to wrap you all in warm emotionally safe comfort blankets.
This. Aims, I'm sorry you had a rough night.
We're headed for the hospital in a few minutes. I am so damn hungry.