Maria, stop reading my mail.(Except, I know it's different, because I've always been fairly sure the domestic path wasn't mine, I guess, but I'm also not a globetrotting author or a happening single chick. What am I doing here again?)

Thanks, everyone. Erika, there are days when I think I'm lucky to have a second chance to not tread the domestic path, but sometimes dreams die hard.

sj, deal.

askye, sounds like it's been a good visit.

My hair is done, but now I am officially overwhelmed by everything I have to do. I need things at a bunch of different stores, and I need to go home and clean. I wish I didn't suck at organizing so much.

Letting go of having children has been the one of the hardest things I've ever done. So much love and support to you, Maria.

TCG and I are putting off making a decision about fertility treatment until September, which was later than we originally planned, but everywhere I go lately I hear stories about multiples, and it really has me freaked out.

I just read about a book about widows who are younger and they all kind of said that. Both those things, really. I found out today that my step-cousin(?) Lauren's pregnant. Now, Lauren has given every sign of being a lovely young person, after a very depressed adolesscence, so it's not like "blah, that bitch has somebody and I have nobody! Boo!" I'm happy for her, but when I met her family? She was four. There is no denying that time is passing and I better go and do--whatever-the-hell it is that I'm supposed to do. Only I'm really not sure.

Thanks, sorella. I may hit you up offline at some point, if you don't mind.

Erika, which book?

Any time.

It's called (checks Kindle) The Saturday night Widows by Becky Aikman...it was a good book. A lot to offer about resiliency and stuff.(Also, Ms. Aikman and I have both been kicked out of support groups.)

That's what I thought. I have it, just haven't read the whole thing yet. Thanks!