hang in there smonster. It is really good you see the red flags and are acting on it. that is brave and sounds like the right thing to do!

ND, I just don't know what to say about 18 hours. I'd be under a table by now.

I think this new guy is a bust. One incident of rambling nonsensical drunk texting? Forgiveable and even a little cute. Another one in less than a week on a work night? Big red flag.

aw man. sorry.

Odd that I'm such an anxious person, and yet pretty good in a first aid crisis.

You are great in a first aid crisis!

Must order therapy light THIS WEEK.

Do eeeeet. Mine is helping, I think. I'm not in as bad of a place mentally as I was before the honeymoon, although I'm also not super great. I'm not at a point where I feel like I need to see the doctor, so I'm just going to keep sticking with the light box and exercise and repairing my gut.

believe people when they tell you who they are

Yes. And while I tend to roll my eyes at men who like to announce that they are sociopaths (true story; I know 2 of these guys, actually, and they're friends with each other, which kind of lessens their "sociopath" cred), because I think if you feel the need to boast that you're a sociopath, (1) you aren't, and (2) you just want attention, of the female-attracted-to-shitheads variety, I still at least believe their underlying message which is "You should stay far away from me." And so I do. Ain't nobody got time for that.

And while I tend to roll my eyes at men who like to announce that they are sociopaths

Gah! People really say that?!

Gah! People really say that?!

Oh, you have no idea. Yes, yes they do. I usually smile at those people and say, "That's nice. I'm going to become vampire witch queen of the universe. Should I put you on the minion list?"

The self-proclaimed sociopaths usually don't know how to respond to that.

Gah! People really say that?!

Oh, you have no idea. Yes, yes they do.

I just want to pinch their cheeks.

I wonder what demographic has more self-proclaimed sociopaths: kinky people or goths?

I'm pretty sure it won't be under 6 more hours. Possibly more than 6. The strike for HHN is finishing tonight which wouldn't be too bad except that today is also the day that I tech at UCLA so I was going bright and early to drive the truck and 14' trailer through rush hour LA traffic since I was also bringing in some equipment for my class. We are scheduled to go until 11 tonight and then I need to make sure the trailer is loaded and get all he gear out of here. I expect to get to get between 2 and 3 this morning. The good thing is my schedule isn't like this all the time.

At first I was going to say it depended on the age group, but then I reconsidered. I think kinky people have more self-proclaimed sociopaths than the goths.

I think kinky people have more self-proclaimed sociopaths than the goths.

That would be my guess, too. I think it's repressed guilt over how much they enjoy hurting people. Easier to just declare you're a sociopath.

(The trick, little monster, is to find someone who wants you to hurt them. Boom. Done.)

I'm trying to imagine why someone would want to boast of being a sociopath, and I just can't get myself into the mindset.