OMG, I want a drink SO BAD. And I have a house full of wine, ciders, and various varieties of booze...so much deliciousness...and so much bad interaction with the drugs :( I can totally rationalize drinking with the liver tumor- livers regenerate pretty well! But pretty sure that booze + muscle relaxers (or worse, valium) might be not for the best. *sigh* It makes me sad. So i'm working on eggs cuz at least for that i gotta be sober to get good straight lines. yeah, I'm totally staying sober for my art. Totally. That's what i fully believe. If I keep saying it enough, it'll be true, right?

GC, I haven't felt like I had a "my doctor" in fifteen years. As opposed to someone on a list I got antibiotics from.

I'm totally staying sober for my art. Totally.

Which is a twist on the traditional relationship of art and booze.

I could use a drink. Things at work were stressful, someone was claiming they were promised a delivery/install time (we don't do that) and their item was a special order. Someone else's order got cancelled somehow. I don't want to deal with it.

I was on the phones, but there was about 1 1/2 hours with only one cashier so I went up to help with the line and rang up another cashier, he has a reputation around the store. I'm pretty sure he was using his friend's money to buy something for his friend which is completely against company policy. But I'm not sure there were some things said and the friend kinda wanted him to do things and I think the friend mentioned it was his money but I didn't want to make an issue out of it. But I ended up telling the closing manager.

And then I realized I have to work with this kid tomorrow night, just me and him on the registers. I'm not looking forward to it.

Plus between this and the other thing I feel like it makes me look difficult.

I am drinking mint tea with honey and Old New Orleans Rum Company cajun spiced rum.

I'm pretty sick of being sick.

I don't understand why people don't trust their doctors. When mine told me I needed the flu shot when I was pregnant? I got the effin' flu shot! Her job is to protect my health and the health of my baby and I trust her to do that.

Some doctors I trust for some things, other doctors I trust for other things. I have a dim view of the medical profession as a whole on certain aspects of my health. I have formed a habit of verifying some types of information I get from them. So yeah, there are times when if a doctor makes a recommendation, if it seems counterintuitive to me, or I think I may have heard conflicting information, I will delve deeper before blindly accepting a doctor's advice. So I can totally see how someone might ponder whether getting a flu shot while pregnant is standard procedure or not. Of course, that particular question would be easily resolved for me, just by double checking with WebMD or the Mayo Clinic site, or some such.

GC, I haven't felt like I had a "my doctor" in fifteen years

Oh, hai. Today's meeting with the psychologist was all "why is my neuro continuing to fail me?" and all sorts of reasons why she's not allowed to do anything about it, because he's sensitive about playground politics and being ratted out to other health professionals.

WELL STOP NOT DOING ANYTHING.

NSB?

Seriously, failing to try to help a patient is doing something. And it's doing the shitty thing. The wrong thing. The really un-Hippocratic Oath thing.

I trust medical advice over the random internets. And my experiences over medical advice that doesn't really know me and fails to listen to my own actual experiences in my body.

But if they recommend a vaccination? I am getting the vaccination. We can quibble details later but I know I am not smarter than viral swarm intelligence.

I can see questioning a vaccination when pregnant -- there are lots of things that aren't safe when pregnant.

Of course, by "questioning a vaccination" I mean "talk to some other medical professionals" not "throw it open to a vote on my Facebook page."