Thanks, le Nubian. I was already feeling kind of worthless to tonight, and I really didn't need anymore help I that area from family.

Thanks, meara. I'll try to get in again.

Family making me feel that way is the worst feeling. It's so many buttons all wrapped together. And then punched. In my face.

I have only once tried to smoke pot. It didn't do anything for me. But, not having been a smoker, I may have been doing it wrong.

Shotgunning and then carefully following instructions finally worked for me but I would be a terrible smoker. Inhaling is hard.

Yeah don't think I'll try illegal drugs. Anything mind altering works differently for me than for the average bear. I mentioned that Tramadol has zero side effect for me. Nobody else I know who has used it says that. On the other hand opiates are absolute poison to me. Nausau, heachaches. I was given a percoset after surgery, almost killed me - dizziness, extreme headache extreme sickness. Much worse than waking up from the surgery. Codeine, not quite as bad, bus really really bad. Vicodin -not as bad as codeine, but still miserable. And whatever they used to knock me out, they later told me it took twice the dose they normally use before I went under. Pot is supposed to be pretty mild, but I can't take smoking anything. Can't even stand too close to grills. Maybe I'll try pot brownies someday, now that it is semi-legal in this state, but part of me wonders if I'll have some type of atypical reaction to that too.

If you do, Typo, eat 1/2 one at first and wait an hour. I have had a few that knocked me on my ASS.

I'm a smoker, but friends of mine bought a vaporizer because neither of them smoke cigarettes, but they like to smoke pot occasionally. I tried it and you think that you are just sucking air, and wasted money, but then -- hello!

ION, my sleep schedule- I am turning it around! This is the 5th day of going to bed between 9pm and 12, and waking between 4:30 and 6am. (OK, yesterday, I woke up at 10.)

But I fall asleep in about 20 minutes! WTF?! And wake up with no alarm. It is a fucking miracle. (Not really joking.)

I love the raven wreath! (Although for some reason the word "wreath" looks wrong to me this morning.)

I slept too late to get to the morning services at synagogue, and I know that I'll be feeling too dizzy from fasting to drive to the afternoon services. Oh well. Guess I needed the sleep.

Dammit, Hil. I'm sorry you missed services.

But I also don't want to head into the less-sunlight, cold part of the year and not be able to pull out of what feels like the beginning of a slide into depression.

I think it's awesome that you are being proactive about this. I'm giving October the side eye myself and may be buying myself a blue light for my birthday.

And I'll be honest -- I wish it were legal

Word, sister. NSAIDs don't do shit for my joint pain, but weed knocks it right out. And I'm also at the point where I'd rather smoke than drink. The latter messes with my stomach and my sleep. Vaporizers are cool, aren't they? I tried one in California with a friend who had a prescription.

If you do, Typo, eat 1/2 one at first and wait an hour. I have had a few that knocked me on my ASS.

Ahahahaha. Once ate Space Cake in Amsterdam, and then we got impatient and smoked, too. Suddenly I realized I'd been rolling the same joint for twenty minutes.

WTF, sj?

Okay, let's talk wedding makeup. Best cry-proof mascara recommendations were Blinc and Diorshow, right? What about lipstick that won't budge? I have terrible luck with lipstick.

WTF, sj?

I don't know. On the complete opposite note, I just received a lovely note from one of my mother's cousins with a picture of me with her granddaughter, thanking me for my visit, and encouraging TCG and I to visit as often as possible.

Teppy, my everyday won't budge lipstick is the covergirl that comes in the two tubes, but I also really like the MAC version.

Is that the Outlast, sj? That's good stuff.

My other really old-school regular lipstick trick is to apply a coat of lipstick, blot lightly, then LIGHTLY powder over it. Then apply a second coat. Works wonders.