I'm really struggling with depression and anxiety

Once I get through the wedding and honeymoon, I may need to go back on anti-depressants. It's been so long (well, 3 years, I think, but that's the longest unmedicated streak I've had since 1995 or so) that I was hoping I was on an even keel for good.

I get that I've had a lot of significant stressors in my life recently, and it's not abnormal for my mood to change in response. But I also don't want to head into the less-sunlight, cold part of the year and not be able to pull out of what feels like the beginning of a slide into depression. Boo.

As for anxiety, my understanding is that there's a BP med that's helpful with social anxiety, and I'm half-tempted to switch BP meds and see if it helps. But my BP is well-managed on the medication I'm on now (and has been for years), so I'm reluctant to switch.

sj, I had some pretty unpleasant experiences with Clomid when I was trying to get pregnant years ago. I had menopause symptoms and was wildly moody. It wasn't great for my depression, either. It definitely did not make me frisky. But honestly, it's not something you can predict, and the only way to know how it's going to affect you is to try it. I would advise having TCG on alert for symptoms, though, and have coping plans in place to get through that period. It sucked, but it would have been worth it if I had gotten pregnant.

Thanks, Pix. I will keep that in mind. Although, honestly I'm not sure TCG could tell the difference right now. I've been a little extra crazy with my monthly cycles since we started this thing a year ago.

There is an entirely herbal, uh, remedy that very often produces those effects.

Marijuana, Zen. Weed, pot, doob, ganja. And I'll be honest -- I wish it were legal in Kansas. I very rarely drink anymore, I don't take Ambien or Xanax anymore, but some evenings, I wish I had a joint, a warm shower with good smelling shower gel and some DVDs. I'd much rather get a little stoned than have a glass or two of wine. I see no problems with weed in moderation. YMMV.

Marijuana, Zen.

Oh! Sorry to be thick. It never had that effect on me. It never had any good effects on me, really. More for y'all that like it!

Seeing family on facebook discussing a get together that I wasn't invited to so much fun. Especially since my cousin promised she would let me know when they were getting together and invite me when she mentioned it weeks ago.

Milk: Is feedly down for anyone else?

Nope, seems to be working for me, sj. Though I guess you asked a while ago now.

I have only once tried to smoke pot. It didn't do anything for me. But, not having been a smoker, I may have been doing it wrong.

Seeing family on facebook discussing a get together that I wasn't invited to so much fun.

I fucking can't stand that shit. Absolutely pushes all of my buttons. I'm sorry.

Thanks, le Nubian. I was already feeling kind of worthless to tonight, and I really didn't need anymore help I that area from family.

Thanks, meara. I'll try to get in again.

Family making me feel that way is the worst feeling. It's so many buttons all wrapped together. And then punched. In my face.

I have only once tried to smoke pot. It didn't do anything for me. But, not having been a smoker, I may have been doing it wrong.

Shotgunning and then carefully following instructions finally worked for me but I would be a terrible smoker. Inhaling is hard.