{{{Andi}}} I'm sorry you're struggling and send many warm wishes your way.

I wanted to upload some baby Ford pix to Flickr but my pro acct expired and I don't want to renew. I can't figure out how to delete pix so that I'm under the 200 limit. I want to share the ridiculous adorableness of my new boy!

Waxing them yourself of someone else waxing them?

Andi, my dear, I am so sorry that your fish are so very dead. I'm kind of not surprised that you feel better in some ways after going off Wellbutrin, I know a number of people who have experiences serious anxiety while on it.

I will sit here and hold your virtual hand and we can contemplate our dead fish together. I feel like there is so much more to your story and I am also here for listening if you like. I also understand if you are tired of talking about it and thinking about it.

Glam, I thought it worked so the most recent ones were viewable, but older than 200 were not?

Hil, OUCH. That sounds like no fun whatsoever.

We could save up all the dead fish, press them between heavy books and make crafts with them, layering them like chain mail.

GC, if it helps any, the old pictures are still there -- we've let our Pro acct lapse a couple of times due to funding shortages, and whenever we get our act together enough to renew everything is still safely there, all the way back to Nilly's legendary North America Tour and possibly even earlier. So don't delete!

WS, I'm so sorry your fish are dead. I will not bullshit you about how fish are always deadest before the dawn, just nod and say that I've buried a lot of fish in my time, as have many other Buffistas, and you are not alone in having dead fish. It's brutal and it sucks and it does not bring them back, but boy howdy are you not alone in this.

Waxing them yourself of someone else waxing them?

Myself.

Andi, I don't know what to say, but lots of ~ma for you.

I like the idea of making the dead fish into chain mail. I suspect we should dry them thoroughly first so the smell wouldn't be overwhelming. I mean, the only thing worse than dead fish is dead stinky fish, amiright? Yeah. I have a lot of dead fish to contribute also. Too bad I'm a vegetarian, someone who likes to eat fish would be very well fed in this company. It sucks. I'm glad you are able to share at all. I suspect that most everyone I know has, at some time, desperately wanted to be dead. I know guilt has kept me on this earth for many years (parents would be devastated, and who would take care of my cats??) but after my last move I found a great Dr who made a lot of really helpful suggestions WRT supplements and medication changes. Brain chemistry is seriously bizarre. Now I like sunshine. Who knew that could happen? It's nice. I'm glad Sammie is being a helpful kitteh, unsolicited snuggles are one of the best things ever.

I have been wearing dead fish chain mail for a long time, immersed in the mud in a pond of my own flop sweat and bad feels/lack of feels and fish entrails.

My fish are zombie fish, faintly twitching. I am on my 5th day of a med called Velociraptor Vibrators (Viibryd) and I, like, smiled or something. Or I am having a seizure. I may shower. I brushed my hair and I have a bra on. The thought of being vertical doesn't fill me with pain and delirium.

This is not helpful to you, Andi or smonster, probably, because, hey, a month ago it would not have been helpful to me, just a randomly noted fact, like the fact that celebrities wear Spanx, but I feel the need to note it. Dead fish definitely vary. Also, I am an unreliable narrator, and possibly high on SSRIs and cran-lemonade.

OH! JZ said what I was trying to say and IT MADE SENSE. Huh. Good. Listen to JZ. I am going to sit here and fondle my zombie fish, and I should probably stop typing.

Andi, my dear, I am so sorry that your fish are so very dead.

Yes, this. Much ~ma to you, Andi.

And Hil, I'm sorry I have no advice as I found waxing too much a bother for me. Razors below the neck, tweezers above.

And Hil, I'm sorry I have no advice as I found waxing too much a bother for me. Razors below the neck, tweezers above.

I usually shave during the winter and Nair during the summer, because shaving as often as I need to during the summer usually irritates my skin. I decided to try waxing because I hate the smell of the Nair, and it's just a pain, so I thought that waxing might work. I forgot to factor in that my skins tears more easily than most people -- several of the hairs that came out took the surrounding skin with them.