Thanks sj - glad you are getting your hair done!

I went to the grocery store but feel like I forgot a bunch of stuff, still felt anxious so now I'm home feeling ok. It's just been a day. And tomorrow E will be over all day and the last 2 times he's been over he's been really ..not in a great mood. Tomorrow starts his Spring break and Saturday they are leaving for the beach.

Mom was planning on going to florida to visit her friends but now she's maybe not going and may go later so she can enjoy a week at home but she keeps going back and forth about it and it's not helping my anxiety.. I'm not anxious about her going out of town but I don't like it when plans change a lot so that level of irritation is increasing my anxiety levels.

Flump. Hello 'fistas. The two day summit is now over. In attendance was my whole upper org chart from my boss's boss up to one step below the CEO. I'm kinda shocked she didn't stop by. There was a bunch of great stuff discussed and I made some great connections.

I was on a panel the first day and had the flop sweats but apparently I looked and spoke confidently. I had hoped today I'd be able to catch up on work and school but I got sucked into another meeting.

My next few days - school/work/laundry today and tomorrow. Saturday I pack my big suitcase, attend an all day training for Comic Con, come home and sleep so I can be up at the ass crack of dawn to fly to California on Sunday.

Go Suzi Go!

Go Suzi.

This day.. man.. it's just anxiety and second guessing myself, I haven't felt like this in a month or so. And I was making spaghetti and the ground beef was iffy so I didn't use it but.. I feel stupid and wasteful , even though I know it's not a big deal, I have veggies, I added some white beans, it will be odd but hopefully good.

I keep thinking it's Friday.

I'm sorry the day has been so fraught, askye. Since I don't eat beef I often make spaghetti sauce with beans and veggies. All good.

I found some navy beans, I had cooked down zucchini, onions and garlic in various dried herbs. I cut up some celrey and added it to the white beans and cooked that, with more thyme and oregano and it tasted so good! I didn't have anything to really make it saucy though.. not good olive oil, no ricotta, so I ended up putting in a jar of tomato sauce and killed all the lovely flavors I had. And it was sooo sweet, I was able to temper that some but eh.

Since I can eat tomatoes again Iv'e been eating it more and realizing that.. I don't actually like certain things, it's too much and dominates everything.

Anyway I'm going to try pasta with just the vegggies and ricotta anotther time

My goal for the evening - get the one homework assignment that MUST be done today accomplished and then I'm crawling in bed. I have a ton of other stuff to do, but I'm running on fumes.

I'm hiding current event and poltical stuff on FB again.

Things I've done that have made me feel better: made major steps in organization, found my roku stick and the remote, found 3 things to get rid of, took a book back to my therapist, found 3 more of his I forgot I had , I've made cooked almost everyday. The ADD meds are working. Also even though I feel anxious I'm aware of how I'm feeling and that these feelings are not true. That's not helping me go away but I know this will pass.

Well, my thumb had been getting better, but now it's getting worse again. Ow. Lots of ow.

Also, I think I picked out a wheelchair to get. I've been missing way too much stuff that I wanted to do, because I couldn't stand or walk enough. [link]