So not an imposter. Any of you.

I can't even get my Purchasing department to tell me that more than half of the 269 vehicles scheduled to be delivered in April have been pushed back to May by the manufacturer. I had to find out from the client who was told by the dealer. It has been a shitstorm since about 5 pm yesterday. My VP is livid that we and customer service were not informed of this major issue.

Epic, they is wonderful! Go you!

Maria, that sucks.

ltc napped for nearly 3 hours today! We're both cranky and tired today.

Maria, we have a new communications person who sends out news releases, but only lets one other person know - he puts the text up on a secondary website we have. As a result, when someone calls or emails about the content, they get a big "huh?" ... which makes us look SO good. And nothing will persuade her that sharing the info with staff just might be a good idea.

Epic, Zen, and Toddson, validation is pretty damn amazing. Pay boost is amazing-er. You've all earned it. Some of the rest of us have, too, just have to do our own back-patting, or ask for it here.

Friday afternoon imposter syndrome meeting - I just got invited to a Project Controls Summit along with about 12 other people. I am one of the two lowest level people to get invited. My BOSS isn't even invited. Ummmmmmm. I have two weeks before the two day meeting to stress over this. Fun.

Yes, Zen! That's awesome.

Epic, congrats on a well-earned raise.

Glad you got some deserved kudos, Toddson.

You guys, I am feeling down on all fronts. PMS is playing a role, I'm sure, but damn. No jobs for my company. Met a cute guy at a conference, he's already dating someone, I invited him to a group outing and he hasn't even responded. I'm getting my ass handed to me on fb for daring to call out a meme as transphobic (not on my page - I posted it to see if I was really out of line).

I'm trying to do a couple more bids today, but I've got Justified on and I can't focus. I should turn off it off and put on some music, but I'm having a hard time caring.

I'm getting my ass handed to me on fb for daring to call out a meme as transphobic (not on my page - I posted it to see if I was really out of line).

Naw, it's pretty transphobic, but with that ugly veneer of plausible deniability. Fuck them.

You guys, I am feeling down on all fronts.

I'm sorry. That blows. I wish the universe would cut you a break.

Naw, it's pretty transphobic, but with that ugly veneer of plausible deniability. Fuck them.

The slightly extra disheartening part is that the OP is a WoC and she got defensive and doubled down and accused those of us calling her out of selective outrage (not caring about black people) and used the entire board of CallOut Defense Bingo: it's just a joke, I don't see anything [transphobic] about it, if you see it you are the one with the problem, why didn't you ask me what I meant when I posted about it, etc. Plus mods not giving a shit except to eventually shut down comments, and several other black women (and some white ones) circling the wagons. I wasn't the only one calling it out, there were at least a half-dozen other folks, too.

I mean, I shouldn't hold members of other marginalized groups to a higher standard, but it's still disheartening. Also, I guess I can take a kind of bitter satisfaction in the proof that *not* getting defensive is really fucking hard and goes against our self-protective instincts as humans.

I'm sorry. That blows. I wish the universe would cut you a break.

Thanks. Me too. Sucks to feel like I'm going to be broke and lonely forever, and to have a little voice telling me maybe both those things are my fault.

{{{smonster}}} You are right about the post. I wish commenting hadn't been turned off; I got there too late to give you any backup.

I hope you allow yourself a little grace. It's a lot to deal with all at once.

The guy sitting next to me at this conference is snoring. He's my role model now.

I'll wake him if he starts to drool on his tie. Maybe.