I'm sorry, Hil.

I'm sorry, askye.

I'm sick. Probably a kidney infection. I'm on antibiotics, but I have a fever and feel awful. We're missing Stitch's first birthday party.

I hope you feel benter soon!!

{{Bitches}} Life needs to be less pain and drama.

I need to call my dentist Monday about my jaw clenching it's out of control. The night guard helps keep my teeth from hurting but my jaw and neck hurts, my ears ache slightly and I have a headache.

Mostly thus is due to current events. I feel like I'm going to bite through the night gaurd .

Blah, askye, I hate stuff like that.

sj, what the hell! That's no good.

Blah. I hurt. Advil sucks. I'm hurting less than yesterday, but still hurting.

I didn't protest today, but if I'm feeling well enough, then I'll go to the sanctuary congregation teach-in tomorrow. I figure a teach-in will be mostly sitting down, so easier to handle. And there's a solidarity rally for trans kids on Thursday that I'd like to go to, if I can, but I'm not sure, because I'm going to have a long day on Friday.

I hate the "So brave!" too, probably especially because I hear it when I feel weak, not strong. Not sure about the whole "Thanks for coming out," thing because there are definite times when it is more of a struggle, and it's nice to be appreciated. OTOH, everything I do is not always So Difficult and I don't really want to live my life as a human macro with "What's Your Excuse?" over my forehead.

Group was hard. We didn't even go over the info we are supposed to because we got to talking especially about anger.

And how people feel guilty about feeling angry and expressing the anger.

Especially at parents and (this wasn't me) when someone hates their parents for abusing them but are made to feel like uilty because it's their parent.

It was good but hard.

I am so checked out of my current class. I just turned in a paper a week late (we can get an extension once a course) and missed this week's discussion. I did calculate my grade so far and the effect of letting those points go and I can still potentially earn an A. I just have one discussion and one paper left that are due next Sunday. Then I get a week off before my next class.

The pregnant young woman on my team is have a C-section today. The young single men are contemplating this. As one said, "You mean, this unnatural process is going to proceed in an even more unnatural way?" The woman who sits near him has scolded him for the "unnatural" comment, and now they're discussing how kidney stones and childbirth compare and how men going through birth simulations reveal themselves to be utter wimps. The young man in question is having no qualms about admitting that the idea of passing something the size of a baby out of a body freaks him out. He does have a girlfriend, and from how he's described her, she'll be no slouch on explaining matters to him. He's a bit douchey, but he can learn.