Hil, I am planning to go tonight. I can't stay too long, because shockingly, children still have to do their homework in this new world, but I am planning on walking over from work at 5. Text me if you go.

I ended up sleeping late, which meant I had to work late to finish all the stuff I needed to get done.

"Oh, *nice* man," said the acquaintance. "Very kind." Acquaintance thought a moment, then added, face alight at the memory, "BIG hands."

Big Hands I Know You're the One!

ltc only wants to play with books today. Forget eating or diapers. So now one of her books is covered with bananas because I don't have enough spoons.

Been there, ltc. Far too many of my books have tomato sauce stains for the same reason.

Therapy is rough and there is not enough time. So many things to work out and I'm making progress. The current insurance will approve twice a week sessions so I'm going g to do that. I sent my therapist 4 emails this week and we didn't cover much.

It's stressful but in a good way even though it hurts.

He also wants me to step away from the news for awhile. I don't want to but I was just onfb and after reading something I almost threw the tablet across the room so I'm going to agree with him on that. At least until I see him next week.

Which feels weak and stupid butthisnis impeding my ability to make progress and I need to do that.

It's not weak and stupid, askye. It's good self-care. It's great that you're taking care of yourself.

Yeah, I have been so antsy all week, and I decided seeing the same articles again and again (either because more people shared them or because I was scrolling through the same newsfeed 8 times) was not good for me right now. I want to see the fashion and baby posts but I need to just get my news from the news. So I am going to try to not be up on fB except for events and messenger. We will see how that goes and how I feel. Hoping it will help.

I've put myself on restricted news - no TV news, radio only to get the weather and traffic, skim the newspapers, cautious about online news ... it's the only way I'm going to get through this.

My right brace cracked completely in half while I was cooking dinner. I'm doing my best not to break down into tears at least until ltc goes to sleep.

I am at a complete loss for emotions, you guys. I am blank right now.

We just found out that a friend of ours was found dead in his home. He was only 58. No details yet, so I have no idea. And details don't really matter anyway, because the outcome is the same.

I am seriously blank. It's too much to take in, on top of the massive pile of shit out there. Tim is the same way. Just blank.