Geez, smonster, like you needed that kind of bullshit - times two.

Right? I hate it. Universe, stop fucking with my smonster!

How much do I love living in a state that has recreational MJ? So much. I pulled my piriformis muscle which is under the gluteus maximus. Despite stretching and having Kelly dig her elbow in my tush, not much has relieved the pain. So today I purchased some CBC salve and OMG, I can walk without limping. I can move without wanting to cry. I may actually be able to sleep tonight.

Ugh, the piriformis is the actual worst. I should have my brother bring me some CBC salve next time they drive from Colorado. I wonder if it would help Tim's painful elbow. (In addition to rheumatoid arthritis, since he's 50, he has some degeneration from plain old osteoarthritis, and he has a really painful elbow. His rheumatologist prescribed a cream that has an antiinflammatory, a muscle relaxer (flexiril), gabapentin (for nerve issues), and lidocaine, and it helps, but not as thoroughly as it could.

Steph, I was asking lots of questions when I bought this, comparing all the options and she did mention that she has people who swear by it for relieving arthritis pain. It is from Mary's Medicinals, if you want to do done research.

My list of things to talk about with my therapist grows. There is possibly dating and trying to figure out if my anxiety about this guy I met is anxiety weasels or realistic. And the current events make me feel like I'm turning into a conspiracy theorist and it's making me paranoid which I think is bleeding into other things. In the past I've had probles with mild paranoid thinking during high anxiety so it's a real concern for me.

I need a plan. So far I've tried to stop following the FB pages and blogs that post a lot of alarmist things. I mean that had a history of that before this week.

I just really hate it when I don't feel I can trust my own judgement.

Suzi, I have the exact same issue with my piriformus on the right side...really wish I could get my hands on that salve. Stupid overegulation.

And the current events make me feel like I'm turning into a conspiracy theorist and it's making me paranoid which I think is bleeding into other things.

You are not alone in this. I've always devoured news and current events in the past but I have to limit it because it too quickly becomes overwhelming.

I just got a call from work. There is some big regional manager coming tomorrow and we are doing a new pricing. So the manager has decided our shift starts at 3 am. Because the change over and audit to make sure it's correct has to be down by 9 am. The pricing always gets done by the time we open but the price audit takes a few days because they don't have one person do it, it's just when someone has a chance or istn busy.

I have to be out the door at 2:15 am tomorrow.

I'm sure if th assistant manages will say something nice and thank us. The manager won't, well maybe thank you. But his management style is "no news is good news" so he only gives feedbacks about problems.

.really wish I could get my hands on that salve.

Not to rub it in, but I used it before I went to bed and I slept GREAT last night. I've been able to get up and move around this morning without pain. It is starting to return now, so I'll apply some more.

Do you know how to stretch the piriformis? PT taught me a few new stretches and a better way to do the one I thought I knew. I'm sure there are youtube videos.

And the current events make me feel like I'm turning into a conspiracy theorist and it's making me paranoid which I think is bleeding into other things.

It is starting to feel like powers are asserting themselves to actually destroy Democracy. Like...this could be it.