Ativan helps me with my occasional attacks, and I've managed to avoid going back on any long-term medication for my anxiety. (Well, I also didn't have insurance for almost a decade, so I didn't have much choice.)

Citalopram has kept me sane for the last few years with added Lorazepam as needed. Which has been less lately than it used to be, this week excepted.

Thank you for all the support and encouragement during my "oh crap, I didn't write my paper and then my brain went to crap for two days after finding out a friend committed suicide but I have a 12 page paper I HAVE to write" marathon yesterday.

My teacher has already graded it. I didn't get dinged for submitting it an hour late. He had lots of notes about how I provided substantial discussion on some topics and then was lacking discussion and citations in others. Which, yep. Yes, that is exactly what that paper was. But I pulled out an A in the class, so I'm ok with that.

I had been fussing about having the same teacher two, and with my new class three, classes in a row. But I have to think that he gets to know who has a clue and who doesn't. But I'm not going to even hope for such a save in my next class. I'm setting up all the papers tonight using a basic template and plopping the paper requirements into the discussion area so each one is ready to go.

ltc has a rash and the oven little started melting when I preheated it for dinner. Smoke everywhere. Monday is being very Monday.

But I pulled out an A in the class, so I'm ok with that.

Hooray for the clutch paper doing its job!

I'm setting up all the papers tonight using a basic template and plopping the paper requirements into the discussion area so each one is ready to go.

Smart! Sometimes the blank page is the hardest hurdle to get over.

Bad Mondays. Yay for getting the paper done.

Day 2 of virtual school and E is here and it is going to be a day of ticket to Ride and Catalan. Also he brought me a thank you card for his presents.

With 5 dollar bill in it. He likes to give money with his thank yous. Me and my parents got 5 his parents got 1.

Heh, individual brains are so weird. I've been on Welbutrin for years with added daily sertraline (generic Zoloft) for anxiety.

Whereas I quickly stopped taking Wellbutrin because it gave me a 24 hr anxiety attack.

I think I'm getting a cold. NOT ON, BODY. Don't you know I have flights to take and Hamilton to see?!?!?

Hurray for the A, Suzi. And go you, being all organized.

askye, nature and/or nurture, we definitely get that worry thing from our parents. Every time I go home I am reminded how far I've come in managing my anxiety. And then I want to kill them because they are driving me bonkers.

Zoloft is really helping my anxiety, which was terribly on prozac.

I went around with my fists clenched all the time with sertraline.

I'm trying not to take anything to deal with the anxiety cabin fever plus E is causing.

I love E. But I swear he is on the spectrum. Or he has something non neurotypical because he verbally stims all the time. He is constantly humming, singing and making noise. Half the time he doesn't even realize he's doing and it is really hard for him to be quiet.

So I'm sympathetic but I woke up at 9:30 and he hasn't been quiet since then. Plus I haven't been out of the house since.. Thursday or maybe Wednesday and haven't had any time alone since then, Mom got a break on Saturday when I went up to my brother's.

My option is to - wear headphones and listen to music (which doesn't help my need for quiet) or go for a walk. Mom doesn't go for walks. Even with her in the house it's not the same as just having the house to myself.

She won't be able to get her car out tomorrow but if there is another virtual day because of icy conditions I may suggest she borrow my car and take E somewhere. I don't want to take any klonopin this will be the third day in a row but I'm going to melt down if I don't