You are not a terrible person; you are the parent of a young child. Chances to get out on your own are few and far between. I bet E would be pleased that you got the chance for a breath of fresh air (mentally and physically).
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Is this where I complain that therapy is hard? Because therapy is FUCKING HARD. I'm traumatized and broken and I don't see a way out of it. And I'm at work now, and all I want to do is go home and cry.
Also, I just got LDBed by Johnny Fucking Cash.
{{{Tom}}}. Yes this is most definitely the place. I'm sorry.
Definitely the place. It's a bitch. But we will all do what we can to help you out of it.
I am not a big fan of the no pain no gain theory. In particular when my loved ones are in pain. IOW, I'm sorry, Tom. It really should be easier, you deserve joy.
Aw, jeez, Tom. I wish there was something we could do to make it less hard. I'm really proud of how hard you work.
Therapy IS FUCKING HARD. Wishing you heart's ease, Tom.
Harvey is on my lap, resting his head on my hand in such a way that I can feel a fang.
Tom, it is so goddamned hard. And fucking unfair. I really, really know how you feel. (Or, at least, I think I'm on the same block, maybe even in the same building.) And it's really lousy.
All I can say is that I *think* the way out of it is to keep doing what you're doing (what *we're* doing), even though it's so fucking hard and painful. I mean, it doesn't feel like that's the way out, but I still think it might be.
Love to you, Tom.
Is this where I complain that therapy is hard? Because therapy is FUCKING HARD. I'm traumatized and broken and I don't see a way out of it. And I'm at work now, and all I want to do is go home and cry.
You've been working your way out of this since I met you almost two decades ago. You are one of the bravest people I've ever known. You could have curled up and all but died long ago, lived a shadow of a life - but you've worked and fought and you have art and fun and people who love you.