Damn it! You know what? I'm sick of this crap. I'm sick of being the guy who eats insects and gets the funny syphilis. As of this moment, it's over. I'm finished being everybody's butt monkey!

Xander ,'Lessons'


Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


brenda m - Dec 14, 2016 8:29:18 am PST #28333 of 30002
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there

Aw, jeez, Tom. I wish there was something we could do to make it less hard. I'm really proud of how hard you work.


WindSparrow - Dec 14, 2016 8:44:52 am PST #28334 of 30002
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.

Therapy IS FUCKING HARD. Wishing you heart's ease, Tom.

Harvey is on my lap, resting his head on my hand in such a way that I can feel a fang.


Steph L. - Dec 14, 2016 10:14:48 am PST #28335 of 30002
I look more rad than Lutheranism

Tom, it is so goddamned hard. And fucking unfair. I really, really know how you feel. (Or, at least, I think I'm on the same block, maybe even in the same building.) And it's really lousy.

All I can say is that I *think* the way out of it is to keep doing what you're doing (what *we're* doing), even though it's so fucking hard and painful. I mean, it doesn't feel like that's the way out, but I still think it might be.


smonster - Dec 14, 2016 11:09:15 am PST #28336 of 30002
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

Love to you, Tom.


Trudy Booth - Dec 14, 2016 12:37:56 pm PST #28337 of 30002
Greece's financial crisis threatens to take down all of Western civilization - a civilization they themselves founded. A rather tragic irony - which is something they also invented. - Jon Stewart

Is this where I complain that therapy is hard? Because therapy is FUCKING HARD. I'm traumatized and broken and I don't see a way out of it. And I'm at work now, and all I want to do is go home and cry.

You've been working your way out of this since I met you almost two decades ago. You are one of the bravest people I've ever known. You could have curled up and all but died long ago, lived a shadow of a life - but you've worked and fought and you have art and fun and people who love you.


Steph L. - Dec 14, 2016 4:52:46 pm PST #28338 of 30002
I look more rad than Lutheranism

The fellow from my improv class who had brain cancer is in hospice now.

2016 is like a lab assignment the fucking devil is rushing to finish before it's due on December 31.


DavidS - Dec 14, 2016 5:09:58 pm PST #28339 of 30002
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."

The fellow from my improv class who had brain cancer is in hospice now.

He should stay alive just to spite 2016.


Cass - Dec 14, 2016 8:11:11 pm PST #28340 of 30002
Bob's learned to live with tragedy, but he knows that this tragedy is one that won't ever leave him or get better.

smonster, you've been working so hard andi hope you find a way out soon.

I think my boss is an amazing vet, great person and I totally hate working for her. It happens. ND had a lot of god advice and I'll likely call him so he can tell me the same thing And I'll hopefully finally listen to to and make changes.


NoiseDesign - Dec 14, 2016 9:19:09 pm PST #28341 of 30002
Our wings are not tired

Feel free to call any time.


askye - Dec 15, 2016 8:34:51 am PST #28342 of 30002
Thrive to spite them

Good of the day...I held a bearded dragon at work.

The bad is that it's sick.

But I held it, and then a meal worm and then tried to help feed the worm to the beardy. He spit it out.

Also found out someone thought I was inot my late 20s. I'm torn between...cool...and also now they will think I'm immature.

The other bad...checked email and discovered my replacement phone was returned as Undeliverable. I assumed it would be and I should have given them my brother's address. I emailed the Verizon rep I've been working with and maybe I'll get my replacement phone before Jan.