bonny, ugh. I don't know what to tell you.

erika, you made me literally laugh out loud, and I needed that. And whether they're better for me, I fully believe they're better for the farmworkers and the planet.

Forgot to take my birth control and my antidepressant this morning, no wonder I'm hell on wheels.

New computer setup - in front of living room couch so I can lean back on couch and type, with monitor and keyboard at proper height. Keyboard, mouse and network connection all wireless. Now to find out if I can make extended use of computer without pain.

Meetup has suggested I join a group called Creative Soapmaking and Cocktails. Honestly. The soap would totally ruin the cocktail. And vice versa, I'm sure.

Fight Club?

OMG!

Now to find out if I can make extended use of computer without pain.

I hope so, Typo Boy.

I'm still ridiculously stressed about the job situation. I'm kicking myself for not getting an IT or engineering degree. (As if people in those fields don't lose their jobs...I *get* that I'm being irrational.)

Tim is fantastic, though, and told me that if we need to get courthouse-married before our planned wedding date so that he can put me on his health insurance, we can totally do that. (Pretty sure we don't have enough employees for COBRA to apply to us.)

So I realize I'm ridiculously lucky in a lot of ways, but I'm still a giant seething ball of stress and knife-y stomach pain right now.

Sorry you are so stressed out right now, Teppy.

So very glad I live alone. Just fielded a call from a young gal whose roomate had stolen her panties. And she's pretty sure he's a registered sex offender but didn't tell her before she moved in...

ew.

ew.

ew.

Poor woman. Ick.

Steph, I hear you on the job freakout thing. And it's hard since you don't really know anything yet, so you don't know how seriously to start looking. Also, awwww Tim.

erin, that is entirely made of ew. And scary!

So, just in case you haven't read Depression Part 2 on Hyperbole and Half, here's a link: [link]

I'm somewhere between "my fish are dead" and "i hate everything." I had a long talk with my mentor about job stuff, and it's just all so fucking complicated and I hate it. And if my friend from HS doesn't stop encouraging me to start my own company I will kill him with my brain from here.

Remember the $25 gift card I was going to splurge with? I used it to buy groceries because I used my grocery money to buy food and an iced tea at the festival that I went to because it was free and I hoped it would improve my mood but instead vacillated between numb and hatred, as I mentioned.

I did discover a new to me band, Alexis and the Samurai (she was on The Voice, if she seems familiar). Here's a video of them at SXSW - [link]