Tracy: Well-- That call -- That call means you just murdered me. Mal: No, son. You murdered yourself. I just carried the bullet a while.

'The Message'


Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


smonster - Oct 19, 2016 3:25:01 am PDT #27055 of 30002
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

It's always the relatively minor stuff that makes me completely lose my shit. I hope you got good sleep, Steph.


SailAweigh - Oct 19, 2016 3:26:01 am PDT #27056 of 30002
Nana korobi, ya oki. (Fall down seven times, stand up eight.) ~Yuzuru Hanyu/Japanese proverb

Steph, I hope you have a better day, today. If it helps you feel better, maybe picturing yourself nut-punching Donald Trump would help alleviate the anxiety. Even if it doesn't help you, know that you would be making many of us very happy by leaving us with that mental image for the day.


Nora Deirdre - Oct 19, 2016 3:36:39 am PDT #27057 of 30002
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)

Thanks for checking in, Steph - was thinking about you last night. I have no wise words, but I do have lots and lots of empathy.

I hope today is a better day.


Calli - Oct 19, 2016 3:50:36 am PDT #27058 of 30002
I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul—Calvin and Hobbs

I hope today is a better day for you, Steph.


sj - Oct 19, 2016 3:51:49 am PDT #27059 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."

Teppy, I hope you slept well.

My mother just showed up with breakfast and a latte. Best mother ever.


Jessica - Oct 19, 2016 3:58:03 am PDT #27060 of 30002
And then Ortus came and said "It's Ortin' time" and they all Orted off into the sunset

Teppy, I hope the night's sleep has helped some.


Dana - Oct 19, 2016 4:01:20 am PDT #27061 of 30002
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.

I do like the thing that's been going around on Tumblr, where you picture Donald Trump as the voice of your depression or anxiety. So when he says, "No one likes you," you can say, "Shut the fuck up, Donald," and it feels good.


Strix - Oct 19, 2016 4:09:20 am PDT #27062 of 30002
A dress should be tight enough to show you're a woman but loose enough to flee from zombies. — Ginger

Props to mom, sj!

Tep, I hope a night's rest has smoothed the feels out even a little bit.

And let me add, I really admire you for working (as in job-work) through a major depressive-anxiety episode? Even though the self-doubt ducks are gnawing away at you, you're still doing it (and I am positive you are doing it well), and I know full well that it is SO HARD.

I tried and failed, rinse and repeat, until I had to stop trying for a good long while, so I am giving you ALL THE PROPS.

You're working, you're socializing, you started improv -- that's actually really some badass "Fuck you, depression aand anxiety!" you've got going on.

It will get better, I promise. It's hard to judge actions from the inside of a d/an x tornado, but from my POV, you're working hard and doing better than you might think.


Steph L. - Oct 19, 2016 4:11:53 am PDT #27063 of 30002
I look more rad than Lutheranism

I didn't sleep great, and I woke up several times thinking that the clothes hanging on the bedframe were a severed horse's head. Which I know sounds like I'm trying to be funny, but it was SUPER real at the time and scared the shit out of me, but I didn't want to wake Tim up because I was sure the horse's head would freak him out, too.

I didn't get enough sleep, and I tried to go back to sleep after I woke up at 7, but my brain is running at a million miles an hour and I can't.

So, not really doing any better, plus exhausted. But I genuinely appreciate everyone's concern. A lot. Thanks, everyone.

I feel like the "best" damage control I can do is figure out how to live with this level of constant worry and sense that something else horrible is going to happen at any minute. People do, right? People live with this, so it has to be possible. I just need to figure out how to do it.


Dana - Oct 19, 2016 4:15:47 am PDT #27064 of 30002
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.

When's your next therapy appointment? This sounds like the perfect thing for a therapist to work on.