Book ,'Serenity'
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Joe told me just now that "We will get there." My response was, "So we keep saying."
Oh, I get so sick of this. A crisis appears, Hubby says, "It'll work out," and I snap, "Well, I'm sick of it having to." The male urge to Fix It. The female urge to Gut Something and Wave Its Bloody Entrails at the Moon?
The female urge to Gut Something and Wave Its Bloody Entrails at the Moon?
I was in total destruction mode earlier: SELL EVERYTHING! WE DESERVE TO HAVE NOTHING! FUCK EVERYTHING IN ITS ASS I DON'T NEED ANYTHING!!
And then l let up because I went into Steve Martin from The Jerk and started talking about a paddle ball game and my dog and Emeline was looking at me like I lost my mind and informed me that the paddle ball game is, in fact, hers and not mine to take with me.
Oh, Aims. I hate that you're having to deal with this, but I know you'll get through it...and that last comment just made me LOL.
Aims, it might be weird to read this, but to me, not-a-mental-health-professional, it sounds like you're handling it pretty good.
Because yes, it sucks beyond words to go through everything you're going through right now - but you're still dealing. You're a good parent. You're a good person. Self doubt isn't uncommon under normal circumstances, and yours are far from being normal. They're rough, and leaving a house that you put so much in to is nothing less than heartbreaking.
I just hope that whenever you'll have the time for yourself in all this stress and shitty circumstances, or whenever you, Joe and Em will have that time, you won't beat yourself up, but will be able to enjoy it.
I am having a bit of a crisis of faith both in myself and the one that bothers me more, God.
You can be mad at God. I am positive that God can handle our anger. Being stressed and angry and scared and frustrated when shitty situations happen is a normal reaction, even for a person of faith. I have from time to time told God, "I am angry at you, and we will talk about this later," and it was cool.
But also? Man, FUCK these "character-building" situations. Fuck them hard. Enough, already! You guys have more than enough character.
But also? Man, FUCK these "character-building" situations. Fuck them hard. Enough, already! You guys have more than enough character.
Cannot be repeated enough.
I think I am going to throw Joe and Em into the car with some lawn chairs and homemade popcorn and drinks and go to the drive-in tonight.
That sounds like an excellent plan, Aims.
It's gotta be better than sitting here, watching "West Wing" for the ten millionth time, and crying, right?
Yes.