Oh, Aims. I hate that you're having to deal with this, but I know you'll get through it...and that last comment just made me LOL.
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Aims, it might be weird to read this, but to me, not-a-mental-health-professional, it sounds like you're handling it pretty good.
Because yes, it sucks beyond words to go through everything you're going through right now - but you're still dealing. You're a good parent. You're a good person. Self doubt isn't uncommon under normal circumstances, and yours are far from being normal. They're rough, and leaving a house that you put so much in to is nothing less than heartbreaking.
I just hope that whenever you'll have the time for yourself in all this stress and shitty circumstances, or whenever you, Joe and Em will have that time, you won't beat yourself up, but will be able to enjoy it.
I am having a bit of a crisis of faith both in myself and the one that bothers me more, God.
You can be mad at God. I am positive that God can handle our anger. Being stressed and angry and scared and frustrated when shitty situations happen is a normal reaction, even for a person of faith. I have from time to time told God, "I am angry at you, and we will talk about this later," and it was cool.
But also? Man, FUCK these "character-building" situations. Fuck them hard. Enough, already! You guys have more than enough character.
But also? Man, FUCK these "character-building" situations. Fuck them hard. Enough, already! You guys have more than enough character.
Cannot be repeated enough.
I think I am going to throw Joe and Em into the car with some lawn chairs and homemade popcorn and drinks and go to the drive-in tonight.
That sounds like an excellent plan, Aims.
It's gotta be better than sitting here, watching "West Wing" for the ten millionth time, and crying, right?
Yes.
That's coming from me and my own stupidity and walking directly into a stop sign (yes. a stop sign) without noticing.
::Raises hand::
Been there - quite often - done that! and it's good to see your pixels, Shir.
Aims, as a child who was dragged all over the country, sometimes twice in one year - 8 grade schools & 2 high schools - the best thing you can do for Em is to stay engaged with how she's feeling and do what you can to help her cope. don't hide the facts from her, but help her find upsides where she only sees down.
My parents got as tired as we did and disengaged and left us to cope on our own with the disruptions the moving caused. there were 7 of us so I guess they figured we would help each other. They were wrong.
Getting the kind of blow you are suffering is one of the worst things that can happen to a family, but you are NOT ALONE! you have us, each other and a meat-space community. Use us/them when you are in need! that's what we/they are there for!
You can be mad at God. I am positive that God can handle our anger. Being stressed and angry and scared and frustrated when shitty situations happen is a normal reaction, even for a person of faith. I have from time to time told God, "I am angry at you, and we will talk about this later," and it was cool.
Teppy is wise; listen to Teppy.