I'm sure most of you have seen the many requests for prayers and scripture quotes from me on FB recently and possibly you've wondered what's going on. A couple of you know some details. Well,guys ... I just don't even know. It's been a rough month in the Miracleborn household. Due to circumstances beyond our control, and in a nutshell, the house we have been living in, fixing up, and have been trying to buy has been sold. We have no money, no resources, and after October 1, nowhere to live. We just found out today (Happy Anniversary to us)and are trying to take a hot second to process before we start trying to move forward. Forward is a hard direction. We've worked our asses off on this house and Joe even built me a fire pit and now we have to move. Again. We have no money to move, shitty credit, and Joe is an independent contractor so not a lot for proving income. We haven't been able to bring ourselves to tell Emeline. We just don't want to break her heart again. She loves the neighborhood and the neighbor kids. She's had 5 moves in 6 years and that doesn't lend itself to alleviating the feelings of Worst Parents in the World.

To pile it on, we are supposed to go on our first family camping trip on Sunday. Our first real family vacation, really. One we've been planning since September. Part of me says that, in the interest of fiscal responsibility, we shouldn't go. We can get most of the money back from our campsite reservation. The other part of me says we should go for the mental health of our family. A small part of me says we should stick close to "home" right now since we - mostly Emeline - have been away for the majority of the past 3 weeks. All I wanted today was to hang with Joe, celebrate our marriage, and just rest. And now, we're both so freaked out but trying not to show it for Em's sake.

My mind is so full right now.

I just don't even know.

Aims

I am so sorry about this situation. It sounds untenable. Can we help at all - esp for those of us at a distance?

Ugg. Sister just texted:

Have you heard from [brother] today? Call me after you do. He will probably be calling you with news.

I ask if it's good news or bad. She responds:

well... he should probably tell you. All is ok, so don't worry.

WTF?

OK, given that "all is ok", that means his lymphoma hasn't returned, right? Given that he and his wife are 5 years older than me (close to 50), I doubt she's pregnant, but, it's a possibility.

Ugg! I'd rather not have known to know that something is coming.

Given they are both on east coast, I assume he should be calling soon, as it's 9pm there now.

Aims also sorry about the situation.

When I was young, my dad sold houses. We moved a lot because my dad pulled the family's fat out of the fire by doing that.

Ugh Aimee, that's a lot to process. Many hugs to all of you. Moving is hard even in the best of circumstances.

Yikes! I was writing mine while Aims posted. Sorry. Tons of ~ma to the Miracleborns!

Can you call him yourself, omnis?

I think you should go camping...it'll make a nice memory.

I honestly don't know. I want to turtle away. A friend who was trying to help us buy the house said to let him know when we do move so that he and his wife could help. I told him, "I think we're going to do this one alone." Right now, I don't want to go through the asking people to help us move. A-fucking-gain. Especially if it's to a temporary place until we find a permanent place and then have to move a-fucking-gain. I am in "retreat from everyone" mode. Meanwhile, my mother is offering sage advice such as, "Don't wait until October 1 to figure it out." Thanks, mom. Here I was thinking September 29 would be a good day to go looking at apartments.