Appointment is at 3. I just need to know. I want to be able to look back and say to myself, You silly stressball, everything is fine, everything is manageable, you worried for nothing!

But this year has been so horrible that I can't even let myself hope for the best-case scenario. I really can't. Because I feel like that's setting myself up to get punched in the face. The best I can hope right now is that it's not horrific. (And, if I can be totally honest with you guys, I kind of feel like even *that* is too much to hope for, too.)

This appointment just needs to get here.

The waiting is the worst.

Keeping you both in my thoughts today, Teppy.

Oh Teppy, it is a good thing you are a thousand or so miles away because I would totally be hugging you right now. Waiting sucks. May tomorrow be in the past much faster than anticipated and the news be so much better than your most hopeful wishes.

Vibing hard for both of you, Steph. Good outcome~ma.

So much ~ma for you and Tim both, Steph!

Steph I'm vibing hard for you too.

I tend to think the worst and turn into a stress ball and I haven't had to deal with the year you have.

Just be as kind to yourself as you can and take care of yourself.

Steph, of course sending the strongest ~ma I can for both Tim and you.

erika, I am so sorry for your loss.

I'm so sorry, Erika. Peace and comfort wishes for you and your family.

Erika, I'm sorry for your loss. Much peace to you and your family.