Suzi, I'd go to urgent care asap with that.

Suzi, I'd get that checked out.

Sorry about the show, sj. Music must have been good to keep so many people on their feet.

Yes, the music was good. I'm just really frustrated with myself lately, and this is playing into my self hatred issue that I've been having lately. Today was also frustrating. We went to the fair in town and I was in a lot of pain, and then people kept bumping into me.

If the spot grows or changes, I'll go to urgent care. I'm not having any allergic reaction. I've carefully (oy, the pictures) done some research on bug bites/stings and nothing there is yelling that this needs immediate attention. I'd rather wait for Monday to call my doc if need be.

I wish I had a clue what got me. I walked outside when letting Jack out and had an immediate OUCH on a place covered by clothing. But at the time there as no mark, no bug, no idea how it got me. We do have wasps in the area, but there was no stinger. We have spiders, but how did it got under my shirt that fast and disappeared as quickly? Stoooopid nature.

My grandma is not doing well and I don't know whether to wish for a rally or a peaceful passing. I'm also sorry the last thing we may have talked about is ACA. It doesn't help that my stepmonster is one of those people that, every time an elder coughs is, like "If you have anything you want to say, this could be It." so we have gathered three times for that purpose, not that i'm complaining, but the overall extended fam fits together like matches and oily rags.

That's hard, erikaj. I'm sorry.

It is...she is eighty-five and has been struggling all year, actually, but the fam has written her off several times and some adjustment to her treatment has helped before... It might not this time, it's true, this does sound serious. And she's in rehab/assisted living and kind of hating that, which I may appreciate more than most, having lived the institutional Experience. Also, one of those times where I wished I'd been more of a link in a chain, but I can't just marry and breed in case of heart failure.(Besides, her kids are wusses anyway)

I need to start getting up earlier on weekends. I need to be at work by 9 on four weekdays, and sleeping late on weekends is really messing with my schedule. I slept until 2 today, which I guess I needed, but now I can't get to sleep at night. I'm setting my alarm for tomorrow, since I do have to go into my office to get some work done. Maybe I'll say that I can go out to breakfast if I'm out of bed and dressed by a certain time. Though it looks like most of the places where I'd want to go don't open until 10, which kind of screws up that plan.

erika, either way, the whole thing just sucks.

I'm sorry erika that's really hard.

I haven't been sleeping and I'm starting to obsession about Penny's health....I'm worried this is a ramp up to hypomania or something since I've been off Lithium for awhile.

I emailed my therapist. The psychiatrist I see is leaving the health center I go to so I'm reluctant to call. I only managed to get an appointment her last day. So I don't know if I'll be able to see her or if I'm over reacting to things .