Solidarity, Teppy.
Oz ,'Beneath You'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Best wishes for a good resolution, Steph.
Steph, gettimg freaked out is pretty much the rational reaction to news like that. I'm sorry that you have such scary news to deal with. Much love and ~ma for you both.
askye, have you ever been drawn to stimming behaviors? I know some teachers and parents try to discourage this kind of activity, more so in the past, but there are places that sell safely designed stimming toys. And I was wondering if stimming might help you channel some of your anxiety and stress feelings to head off a meltdown.
Teppy, freaking out is completely normal. Tons of ~ma for you and Tim. Did the doctor say whether or not the freaky lung collapse a while back was related?
I stim. I realized I've repressed a lot of it becasue I knew it was "weird" or did thigns when I was by myself. But I've been more open about stimming.
One reason I like my hair short is that it's easier to run my hand over my head (one of my stims) but this is something that Mom calls out because it looks bad . I also flick my fingers aginst my thumb or scrape my thumb over my ring finger, like I'm flipping a ring around in circles (those are pretty subtle).
And there's something else I do that's kind of a stim. Sort of. I put my hands on my hips and will slip my fingers inside the waistband of my pants or skirt. Which I know looks weird, but the feeling of the band against my fingers feels.. anchoring or something. And if I'm sitting down at home sometimes I'll do something similar to what Ed Bundy did in Married with Children (I don't put my hand down my pants just so I feel the waistband around my first set of knuckles) but that I have to hide. I've tired to explain it to Mom and I got - one time "You never used to do anything like that" (yes I did actualy you just never saw) and then a couple weeks ago "I'm sorry but that just looks WEIRD" So now I'm really careful about what I do when she's around because it adds more stress.
Watching the DNC on tv and listening to some of the speeches I did happy things-- shaking my arms and wiggling. I almost did that during the movie today but I caught myself. Only because of Mom if I had been alone I wouldn't have cared and just done it any way.
Soooo after that TMI
I haven't seen any stim toys that really just grab me. I have to find something that will work for me.
edited - I should get a cool ring to wear.
I tend to turn to my iPhone when I'm very anxious, which I know people consider it rude. But sometimes I just have to escape for a minute.
Steph, mucho ~ma for Tim. And chill ~ma, for you. (Perfectly reasonable thing to be anxious over, but I'm sure you'd like to be calm for him).
I do have spotify and I put on Hamilton and earbuds and listened to that some but then I had to answer some questions.
I had a "calm down" play list but I need to rework it and add Hamilton.
Also saw a preview for Moana trailer and I cheered when I saw LMM's name.
Steph, I'm sorry about the bad news. I know not really knowing is the worst...I hope you get in for a consult quickly and that it's the best possible scenario.
askye, this outfit has a couple of spinner ring designs [link] plus a variety of other items.