Next time I go out of my way to be in RI to see relatives, someone remind me not to.

{{sj}} Remember you have sane loving family right here.

And thank goodness for that. Mom's s-I-l was being a bitca about accommodating ltc's schedule despite the fact that we went out of our way to be there that weekend just to see them. And because I inherited more baby clothes than one baby could ever need, I've been splitting the hand me downs between my cousin and vw. So she told my mother that I'm giving vw all the nice things and the crap to her granddaughter.

ltc is very so happy to be in her own crib tonight.

sj, what a bitca! Honestly, some people.

That is... beyond me.

sj, I am sorry about the crap relatives. I hope you give her all the thought she deserves, which is none.

Also, speaking of awesome Sarahs, how awesome is Sarah Silverman?

Very, is how awesome Sarah Silverman is.

Sarah Silverman was awesome.

sj she is a bitca. Can you avoid her in the future?

Today I overslept, but managed to make it to therapy. My period started today (realized before I left the house) and so that made it not fun. Cramps! when dealign with emotional issues! I cried more than I have in awhile just feeling overwhelmed about a lot of things. I'm anxious being around people and in public places and I know part of it is from not being around people and in public places so I should go out to increase my tolerance but ...I don't want to.

Also there's the looming insurance issue. I've made zero income. I won't qualify for the tax credits for ACA because the Southern states are against the medicaid expansion. So I'm looking at ... hopefully being employeed and having insurance that way or able to pay out of pocket, or just not having insurance. Which I don't like to think about because it' makes me so panicked.

There's some sort of...insurance people thing I don't know, that my therapist suggested I contact but that means, contacting them. I may see if I can email them and also see if I can get Dad to go with me if I need to speak to them in person so he can ask questions and help me.

In other insurance news United sucks. My plan says I get unlimited visits for therapy which means 1 visit a week. But they also do periodic reviews and normally it's no problem. But Matt (my therapist) said my file has been kicked up for further review and he doesn't know why. I'm wondering if the phone call I made about asking about 2 appointments a week partially triggered this. I don't know if they think I'm too healthy for appointments or too unhealthy and need "more care" (based on their formulas of what is best). But there's a very real chance they could decide to deny coverage for any further appointments.

For some weird reason they are covering therapy and prescriptions 100% but not routine doctor's visits and I could call and ask but that means talking to them and I haven't been able to make myself do that.

So um, insurance~ma would be helpful. There's no time table on when this review will happen or how long it will take.

In the mean time -- group therapy starts back on Saturday.

Thanks, everyone. No, I can't completely avoid her, but I can stop myself from going out of my way in the future to make myself available.

Ugh, askye! I hate insurance fuckery. Best of luck to you.