sj, I am sorry about the crap relatives. I hope you give her all the thought she deserves, which is none.

Also, speaking of awesome Sarahs, how awesome is Sarah Silverman?

Very, is how awesome Sarah Silverman is.

Sarah Silverman was awesome.

sj she is a bitca. Can you avoid her in the future?

Today I overslept, but managed to make it to therapy. My period started today (realized before I left the house) and so that made it not fun. Cramps! when dealign with emotional issues! I cried more than I have in awhile just feeling overwhelmed about a lot of things. I'm anxious being around people and in public places and I know part of it is from not being around people and in public places so I should go out to increase my tolerance but ...I don't want to.

Also there's the looming insurance issue. I've made zero income. I won't qualify for the tax credits for ACA because the Southern states are against the medicaid expansion. So I'm looking at ... hopefully being employeed and having insurance that way or able to pay out of pocket, or just not having insurance. Which I don't like to think about because it' makes me so panicked.

There's some sort of...insurance people thing I don't know, that my therapist suggested I contact but that means, contacting them. I may see if I can email them and also see if I can get Dad to go with me if I need to speak to them in person so he can ask questions and help me.

In other insurance news United sucks. My plan says I get unlimited visits for therapy which means 1 visit a week. But they also do periodic reviews and normally it's no problem. But Matt (my therapist) said my file has been kicked up for further review and he doesn't know why. I'm wondering if the phone call I made about asking about 2 appointments a week partially triggered this. I don't know if they think I'm too healthy for appointments or too unhealthy and need "more care" (based on their formulas of what is best). But there's a very real chance they could decide to deny coverage for any further appointments.

For some weird reason they are covering therapy and prescriptions 100% but not routine doctor's visits and I could call and ask but that means talking to them and I haven't been able to make myself do that.

So um, insurance~ma would be helpful. There's no time table on when this review will happen or how long it will take.

In the mean time -- group therapy starts back on Saturday.

Thanks, everyone. No, I can't completely avoid her, but I can stop myself from going out of my way in the future to make myself available.

Ugh, askye! I hate insurance fuckery. Best of luck to you.

Insurance~ma for you, askye. That's tough stuff.

What I really want to say to United is something along the lines of fuck you motherfuckers.Y'all are why insurance fucking sucks and if you'll just suck it up and lose money on me until Dec 31 you won't ever have to spend a cent on me again because I will NEVER use United fuck you motherfuckers. I will go without insurance rather than deal with your bullshit chicanery and hoops that you make everyone go for. You've saved money by not paying my therapist his full fucking fee - apply that to the rest of my vists. Fuck you motherfuckers. Dealing with you bastards has made my fear and anxiety about dealing with insurance even worse and just thinking about is a freaking PTSD trigger -- United in particular but insurance in general. I can't even dealw ith my dental insurance issue because of the carry over anxiety. So by laying out these hoops you've made things worse United and you should pay for the therapy I need to help me deal wth the stress you've caused fuckers.

But I won't because that won't help things and it's rude and I know better.

Insurance companies are a layer of evil worse than banks because it is your very life and health they screw with. I despise them.

Insurance companies are a layer of evil worse than banks because it is your very life and health they screw with. I despise them.

Just wanted to echo that.

Nothing happened today except CLARK MOTHERFUCKING GREGG liked one of my tweets. I was listening to the WTF interview with him (from several months ago) and discovered that he found and directed a play I saw in NYC in 1991! It was called "Distant Fires" and was really good and I have never forgotten it. I tweeted about it and that I remembered it and my new BFF Mr. Gregg liked that. So, there you go.

The interview is very good if you haven't heard it: [link]

CLARK GREGG KNOWS YOUR PIXELS!! I MUST WORSHIP YOU!!!