Ran across this a couple days ago and thought of what's happened here. Also a story from Allyson's book. sigh ....

Whoa, yeah.

I've just got one more day of teaching for this summer, then it looks like I'll be volunteering for the next couple months. So far, I signed up to register voters at Pride, and I'm almost done getting certified and background-checked to help resettle refugees.

No ac . No word from the guy. Don't know when or if he'll come. I can go stay at my aunts which is okay for a night but not what I wanted for this trip.

All I want to know is of he'll come tomorrow to fix it or if not when. Of the answer is Monday I'm saying fuck it and going home.

My attempt to have a restful time to myself is ruined. I can't even have tonight because dad has to wait here to see if the guy will come so he can pay him. If he says tomorrow it's the same song and dance.

The AC guy called at 630 this morning..well he called dad saying he'd be here a d 11 hours later no word.

On top of that something weird is going on with a toenail and I tried to to the walk in care but they were out if appointments, seemed confused by me being out of state, and this other employee came around while I was trying to explain why I was fighting back tears and I lost it and yelled at them for being useless and left.

Which was horrible but there is the heaat, the waiting for the phone call, I can't feel comfortable because dad is doing chores and moving around and I just wanted time alone. And I didn't get that and even if this guy says ph yeah I'll be there tomorrow there its not a sure thing based on today AND it's another day of dad killing time until he shows up.

Mostly I want to blast the Hamilton soundtrack but I don't think Dad will like it.

{{{askye}}}

Ugh. I just got home after going out for two hours and ltc didn't nap while I was gone because she wouldn't stop crying. I came in put the ceiling fan on in her room and she went right out, but she should have napped an hour and a half ago. No one called me to tell me she wasn't sleeping. I hate this feeling that I can't go anywhere because no one will do things "right" while I'm gone.

ltc is finally asleep for the night.

I'm feeling both really lonely and really antisocial right now. I'm not sure what the solution is for that. Or if there is a solution.

peace to you askye

and sj too

Jonathan does have chronic low level pancreatitis, whihc is expect - mostly it is change food, and stuff for whn he isn't feeling well. - but I just didn't ec=xpect the near panic - not because of him but because it brought back so many memeories. Happily it was a friends birthday last night - and today was work ,mellow dinner and a cat that is suddenly behaving more like a kitten and lovebug

beth, I get why it would be hard to deal with multiple trips to the vet for Jonathan after all you went through last year.

sj, I hope you can de-stress. Parenting is hard enough.

askye, florida summer with no AC is no joke, definitely the opposite of peace and tranquility. To have such a weird thing going on with a toenail that you wanted medical attention for it but couldn't get it just adds another level of suckitude.

I hope you can get ac and medical care soon, askye. And your baby will eventually get to the point where she can say, "Yo, caretaker, make with the fan already," sj.

Hil, those are great summer plans! I hope you enjoy them. I did some voter registration at Pride around here one year. It was a blast. What sort of training does refugee resettlement require? It sounds tremendously useful. The whole thing is probably pretty complex.