One of my girlfriends has been seeing a guy for a couple of years that she met on OKCupid, but she's about the only one I know of. I've never been brave enough to wade into that particular pond.

Completely by accident, I paid off my credit card! (I mean it wasn't like I was all, "Who can keep track of my piles of money?" -- it was more that I knew I was close-ish, but not sure exactly how close, and when it turned out to be $160 away, I went ahead and did it even though my APR is 0.0% right now. I figured why hang on to debt when the APR could pop back up.)

And, of course, this is in time to get 2 crowns on my chalk-like teeth. (One of the many things I miss about Ginger is her commiseration about crappy teeth and getting dealt a bad hand genetically when it comes to the ol' choppers.) And I *really* ought to buy a new laptop.

But still, right now, I will take the damn win.

Yeah, a while ago, I met a guy on OK Cupid that I dated for a while. And I've met a few other guys there that didn't really turn into anything, but they were nice. This time, I've got a bunch of guys from India and Pakistan sending me messages about my breasts. I blocked them, and removed one of my pictures. (I hadn't thought that picture was particularly boob-ish -- I'm wearing a tank top, and it's clear that I have breasts, but it would be clear that I have breasts if I wore anything other than a burka.) And I really like my smile in that picture -- it's one of the few photos of me smiling where I don't look like I'm plotting to kill someone -- but whatever. Maybe I'll crop it or something.

I'm also trying JDate, but so far, none of the guys that I've messaged there have responded. And one guy that I messaged on OK Cupid responded with, "Wow, it's really brave for a girl to message someone on here!" which is starting to make me feel like I'm just doing this whole thing wrong.

I don't understand why people on OK Cupid send messages to people who live on the other side of the globe. Like, what do they expect to get out of that?

I don't know it's weird.

YAY for paying off credit card.

My birthday is Thursday and I'm half way through finishing a job application. Part time. I need to get my start and end dates from my last job and look on my old computer for my resume.

I really need to dropbox that.

My birthday is on Thursday and I'm only having mild anxiety about applying for part time stocking position. Which I guess is progress. It's jsut something that a I don't know, a teenager shouuld be doing not a middle aged woman. WHich I guess I am at this point.

Although last week at therapy I stuck around and made a.. guess it's an art journal page.

"Their intentions are not your goals." And then later I was like "it should be expectations" but it works. I just have to remember it and try to embrace that.

Not OKCupid, but Biyi and I met through online dating, on an Aussie website, RSVP. For what it's worth, she approached me. (Her entire activity on the site was to send out that one message. She may have an unrealistic picture of the typical online dating experience.)

It must be easier dealing with women--I've certainly had a few "hi" messages or slightly weird ones, and plenty that were not to my preference, but nothing terrible, and I've been on a ton of first dates that were perfectly pleasant, even if they didn't inspire second dates. And dated a bunch of people.

And, of course, this is in time to get 2 crowns on my chalk-like teeth.

Getting mine tomorrow! two of them. Two of the FOUR total they want me to do. Goddammit.

Teeth, man.