I think I have some sort of hormonal shift that is making feel all ragey and Fuck everyone. I'm trying to stay awy from Facebook before I say something and I had to step away and not play with Evander because I had ZERO patience for him and he was just being a kid but I wasn't reacting to it that way.
Fred: So you don't worry that it's possible for someone to send out a biological or electronic trigger that effectively overrides your own sense of ideals and values and replaces them with an alternative coercive agenda that reduces you to a mindless meat puppet? Shopkeeper: Wow. People used to think that I was paranoid.
'Time Bomb'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
askye - May 22, 2016 12:37:03 pm PDT #24725 of 30002
Thrive to spite them
sj - May 24, 2016 3:46:03 am PDT #24726 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
I'm supposed to go to a luncheon today for the library volunteers, and I'm just not sure I can handle it. It's very damp here, and my pain level is high, which is making me very anxious. I'll probably regret it if I don't go, but I may regret it if I do go and I'm an anxious mess.
SuziQ - May 24, 2016 4:46:27 am PDT #24727 of 30002
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame
If you go, do you have to stay the whole time? Maybe go and allot yourself a certain time window and if you feel anxious you can leave. You have a baby to care for, I'd certainly understand if you were out with me.
sj - May 24, 2016 4:57:17 am PDT #24728 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
I can't get ltc in and out of the car by myself. So a friend is coming by to help me with that. So, yeah I'm stuck there until my friend leaves and follows me home to get ltc back in the house for me.
sj - May 24, 2016 5:40:09 am PDT #24729 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
It's probably one of the reasons I'm anxious. I hate asking for help and I worry people are going to think I'm an unfit mother. ltc fell asleep in my arms instead of in the crib. Now I'm waiting to see if I can get her to sleep in the crib a little longer so that I can shower. I'll see how I feel after I get out of the shower.
Nora Deirdre - May 24, 2016 6:29:55 am PDT #24730 of 30002
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
Can your friend babysit ltc at your house while you're at the event? That way you can slip in and out.
sj - May 24, 2016 6:41:22 am PDT #24731 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
No. She is running it. I'm showered and dressed. The baby's diaper bag is packed. Her food bag is packed. I just have to get her up from her nap and dress her. I can do this.
Burrell - May 24, 2016 7:03:02 am PDT #24732 of 30002
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
You can most definitely do this, sj, and if the anxiety hits you can probably go outside by yourself for a bit and get centered.
I hate asking for help and I worry people are going to think I'm an unfit mother.
Both very natural worries, but also things you can tell your brain to shut up about. Knowing when you need help and knowing that you can ask for it are life skills and successful strategies, not signs of failure. And anyone who thinks you are an unfit mother is a little mind and you can ignore their bullshit. You are clearly devoted and loving and wonderful and meeting your baby's needs.
None of us are perfect parents, certainly not me. But what I do have going for me is that I know by now that even with all my imperfections, my kids will have their needs cared for, they know they are loved and know that I am there for them, wherever that may lead.
SuziQ - May 24, 2016 8:03:31 am PDT #24733 of 30002
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame
What Burrell said. A zillion times.
askye - May 24, 2016 9:23:34 am PDT #24734 of 30002
Thrive to spite them
My mood issues I've been having for the past however - I realized finally it was sort of a slow burn meltdown. I'm kind of over it.
I was able to go to therapy and talk about some semi tough stuff AND go to my nephew's 1st grade ... not play but...musical presentation. 5 classes, 7 total songs. It was over in about an hour. I don't really want to be around anyone for the rest of the day (kind of not an option but Thursday is usually a day Mom's out of hte house all day). So I'm holding out until Thursday.
You are not an unfit mother SJ! I wish I could smack anyone who says that. Also asking for help is hard but I hope the volunteers oooh and aawww over the adorableness that is ltc and offer to help you with stuff becuas they want to spend more time cooing over her.