sj, I don't think it's unreasonable for you to expect that. But I fear that is the kind of error I could make.
Oh, yeah. There was this time I was pinned down by this guy that played left tackle for varsity... Well, at least he used to before he was a vampire... Anyway, he had this really, really thick neck, and all I had was a little, little Exact-O knife ... You're not loving this story.
Buffy ,'Beneath You'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
WindSparrow - Apr 30, 2016 9:06:45 pm PDT #24461 of 30002
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
Zenkitty - May 01, 2016 1:38:26 am PDT #24462 of 30002
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
Hil, your doctor can't call in a refill the next day?
Zenkitty - May 01, 2016 11:14:16 am PDT #24463 of 30002
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
So, I had my three good days for the month, and apparently they're over now. I spent them catching up on work and having four hours of socializing with friends last night, and now, today I feel like absolute crap. It feels like coming down with the flu, but I know it isn't, it's just how I feel when the three good days are over. Once again all the stuff I meant to do didn't get done, and I'm upset about that, and I'm upset that once again I managed to fool myself that the good days might last this time.
I didn't get to tell New Doctor everything I wanted to. I made a list and gave it to him but still I couldn't explain everything. I wasted too much time crying and pleading with him to recognize that this is not a normal way to be. So tomorrow I'm going to a mindfulness seminar he suggested. I'm doing it because I told him I would, but honestly, I think it's a bullshit waste of time. I've got a couple appointments scheduled now for a sleep study and an endocrinologist, but I have zero hope that either one will do jack for me. Even if I have sleep apnea, that wouldn't be causing something that's obviously cyclical, and the endo is gonna see perfectly normal levels of everything and tell me she can't help me just like the last two did. It's all a waste of time.
Zenkitty - May 01, 2016 12:29:02 pm PDT #24464 of 30002
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
Didn't mean to kill the thread! Sorry. Carry on.
DavidS - May 01, 2016 12:48:33 pm PDT #24465 of 30002
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
So tomorrow I'm going to a mindfulness seminar he suggested. I'm doing it because I told him I would, but honestly, I think it's a bullshit waste of time.
It may be a waste of time, but the thing is you probably need to do something different than what you've been doing. So among those things which are not your instinctive choice is probably the direction you need to move.
askye - May 01, 2016 12:55:10 pm PDT #24466 of 30002
Thrive to spite them
Zen,
It's okay that you cried and were upset. That's fairly normal. Heck a few weeks ago pretty much my entire session was me crying and trying to explain how I felt about sometiing and feeling it was impossible.
CAn you email the new therapist? Mine let's me do that. And I have to send him an email tonight. That way there's a heads up for what I want to talk about in case it gets derailed or so he can move me back on track or remember it for next time if all I can do is cry.
And with mindfulness even if you get one little thing out of it then going is worth it.
Zenkitty - May 01, 2016 1:08:00 pm PDT #24467 of 30002
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
I've promised myself I'll be open to the experience and see what happens. I mean, it's not like I've never done mindfulness meditation before, I got my nickname for a reason... okay it was for a cat that used to sit on me while I was sitting zen but still. It's just that this feels organic, not a product of an unsettled mind. Also everything feels futile right now. But I'm going.
I don't know. It just feels like telling a distraught person that she ought to try yoga is just another way of dismissing the problem as being all in your head.
Becky - May 01, 2016 1:09:24 pm PDT #24468 of 30002
On Neko I am missing the last 7 cats. I know they need the right toy to come visit. Do they need the right food as well? Does it matter if the toys are inside or outside? I do have momentos from 24 of them. I know there are wiki pages out there but I don't want to be completely spoiled.
askye - May 01, 2016 1:14:10 pm PDT #24469 of 30002
Thrive to spite them
Zen, I know it can sound that way. I don't think it's meant to be dismissive. Okay some people it is, but like with my current and previous therapists it was more -- here's another tool in your toolbox to help you. Not "do this cuz it's all in your mind".
not that I've followed through with the yoga but I am doing better wtih breathing exercises.
It was hard for me to see that it could be helpful but it was.
Steph L. - May 01, 2016 1:23:34 pm PDT #24470 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
I don't know. It just feels like telling a distraught person that she ought to try yoga is just another way of dismissing the problem as being all in your head.
Like askye said, I'm guessing the mindfulness session is meant to be an additional thing, not a replacement for meds/therapy.
On Neko I am missing the last 7 cats. I know they need the right toy to come visit. Do they need the right food as well?
Some of them do seem to need a specific food, but I only figured that out from googling. So if you're avoiding spoilers, you may be in a pickle here.