I had a really bad reminder this weekend.
I'm sorry to hear this. But you have come a long way and are doing well in so many ways. Try to not get too hung up on the rough bits.
Zoe: So you two were kissin'? Book: Well. Isn't that... special?
'Our Mrs. Reynolds'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Liese S. - Jan 19, 2016 4:33:20 pm PST #23047 of 30002
"Faded like the lilac, he thought."
beekaytee - Jan 19, 2016 4:35:32 pm PST #23048 of 30002
Compassionately intolerant
DavidS - Jan 19, 2016 7:44:33 pm PST #23049 of 30002
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
I had a really bad reminder this weekend.
Was it me?!
sj - Jan 20, 2016 5:13:23 am PST #23050 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
I'm sorry, Tom.
I'm sorry, bonny. I saw your post before you deleted, but I wasn't sure what to say.
Tom Scola - Jan 20, 2016 5:19:22 am PST #23051 of 30002
Remember that the frontier of the Rebellion is everywhere. And even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward.
Was it me?!
This weekend I got to hang out with both msbelle and you! Awesome! Except it made me, like, really anxious. And I didn't realize just how anxious it was making me until I had some scary short-term memory loss issues. And if I can't just hang out with two of my best friends in the world and just feel comfortable, what hope do I have of ever having a real social life, or, you know, a girlfriend?
I've been talking to my therapist about it all week, and right now I'm feeling better and not such in a dark place, but, still, a setback that I need to recover from.
WindSparrow - Jan 20, 2016 5:35:46 am PST #23052 of 30002
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
Gah, Tom. I can't imagine how scary and frustrating that must be. May your work with your therapist make progress that satisfies you.
Bonny, I didn't see your post. But you know I'm in your side, whatever is going on in your life.
Laura - Jan 20, 2016 5:52:06 am PST #23053 of 30002
Our wings are not tired.
I'm sorry, Tom. I sincerely hope that you find solutions to your anxieties very soon. I understand how much work you are doing to make that happen. The rest of us wish you could appreciate you as much as we do.
Sitting here working hard and being annoyed that I am listening to my sister snore. This happens too often, not just with her. Then I feel bad about being annoyed. I guess I should learn to nap, but then I would be upset about not working.
Burrell - Jan 20, 2016 6:07:45 am PST #23054 of 30002
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
Lots of ~ma for both of you, Tom and bonny
smonster - Jan 20, 2016 6:33:49 am PST #23055 of 30002
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.
bonny, hope everything is okay. Didn't see your post.
Tom, I get anxious around good friends, too. Like, I know rationally that Nora likes spending time with me but my anxiety always wants me to stop bugging her (shh, Nora, it's okay. It's me). I'm sorry that you feel so overwhelmed.
My shrink visit must have really cracked some shell of denial, because I fell all the way apart last night and went to bed at 6:45 pm. Slept pretty much all night, too. I feel better today, I guess I needed a catharsis.
Zenkitty - Jan 20, 2016 6:51:05 am PST #23056 of 30002
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
How come the nicest, smartest, most talented, all-around best people I know suffer so hard from anxiety and low self-esteem, while the dumbest, meanest, shallowest, most useless people I ever meet are filled with confidence and the sureity of their own rightness and righteousness?
Even the awesome people who seem supremely self-confident, like some of my BFs, if you look behind it you find it's a shield for all of their fears. The ones who never question themselves, who never find any reason to, are the ones you don't really want to be around for long. It doesn't seem fair, that the ones with the most reason to have confidence end up with the least.