Very glad I don't have to be at work today. No classes or office hours today, and I had some stuff that I was going to do at the office, but it can all be done at home or on Monday.

Middle aged female rant: I'm so tired of having to consult my bladder so often. Getting on the road after work: pee first. Get home after driving for 20-30 minutes: pee. Changing tasks after sitting for a while, shift the body: pee. Decide not to be a slave to my bladder and teach it some patience: hounded by the nagging urge that I'm going to have to pee soon. Organizing the day's errands: which store has the most convenient restrooms. Being told it's your turn for the two-hour training: pee first.

But I'll be damned before I take another drug for the purpose of regulating it. I'm doing enough to my body's systems without mucking with that one.

Talk about going with the flow, right? Although it is different for me, I have many days where my bodily functions do kind of take over, and it never really does get easier. Maybe there's a supplement that could help? Or maybe you could find a way to frame it in your head that is a little less master-slave(although sometimes I feel like my own evil twin so I don't want to be one of those "It's your attitude that *really* matters!1" assholes.(But it matters a little, I think, although everyone should get to rant without getting badgered to turn her frown upside down.)

I have no concept of what life is like when you don't have to organize your day around bathrooms and such. Which is not to say you shouldn't rant, it's rant worthy.

I think of peeing as my new hobby and try to find new places to do it. In London there are places you have to pay to do it, so it must be fun. 50p to pee!

Apparently kegel exercises help, but I haven't really been good about that except after childbirth. Worth a try.

Man, I have zero minus infinity motivation today.

I think of peeing as my new hobby and try to find new places to do it. In London there are places you have to pay to do it, so it must be fun. 50p to pee!

I don't think I have run into that in London. My tour guide taught me to walk into the poshest hotels and just pretend you belong there. In Italy though there were cleaning people in all the touristy bathrooms that you had to tip in order to use the bathrooms. At least there were a decade ago when I was there.

I only found a few public bathrooms that were pay-to-pee, but we kept giggling about them. One was in a train station and one was near the Tower.

My tour guide taught me to walk into the poshest hotels and just pretend you belong there.

Considering how scruffy we both looked, I don't think we could've gotten away with it!

In Italy though there were cleaning people in all the touristy bathrooms that you had to tip in order to use the bathrooms.

Oh, yes, I found a couple bathrooms where there was an attendant with towels and hand sanitizer and such, and a waiting tip jar. I learned to keep a few pounds available. It makes me uncomfortable.

Though I'm learning that a lot of my social discomfort comes from feeling like I'm underdressed or just look like a bum. If I were dressed better, I'd have a lot more confidence. It's also related to being fat, unfortunately.

You are lovely, though, Zen. You should consider seeing if you can choose some wardrobe pieces you love, in your body right now, and check if that affects your swagger and then how you present yourself and are responded to.