I don't have an appointment souchas a show up to get squeezed in time. I got here eary for 3:45 but when I came in there was someone waiting to see the same doctor, someone for 3:30, and someone came in for a 4pm appointment. I don't think the 3:30 person has been seen yet.

I'm sorry erika, but I'm glad you get to keep what you have.

I'm out by myself for the first time since ltc was born. I'm at the market. Do I know how to party or what?

I'm at the market.

Whoa whoa whoa slow down there crazy lady!

I'm home. It's sad how much I enjoyed that trip to the market. I hate relying on other people to do errands for me, and I love being able to get exactly what I want.

Being out and about alone with a baby is more complex than those who haven't done it realize!

And, since you had the baby with you (hands-free mode) for nine months before she was born, it's been almost a year since you two were out without her.

You got a little time by yourself and to pick out what you wanted it's a good thing.

I got x rays. I'll find out tomorrow the results. My stupid knee didn't hurt the way it has before so I was trying to describe it.

I have a prescription for physical therapy and I'll call tomorrow. I told my doctor I'm moving so she said if it's really serious and requires more than just PT she recommends I hold off on that until I move. Hopefully I just need PT.

And ice! Ice is still a good thing so I got an ice wrap thing from Rite Aid and it's freezing for 2 hours until I can use it.

Unfortunately I learned that not only have I regained all the weight I lost in the fall/winter but gained more. Which made me feel frustrated but next to the Rite Aid is a meat market that makes yummy sandwiches so I got a whole (half for tomorrow) and they had mini pumpkin whoopie pies and salted carmel brownies. I got one of each (at the whoopie pie). THIS is the reason I gained the weight back. I can't just act like I don't know how it happened. But I'm resolving to go back to simpler eating.

Thanks, sj. And to be clear, I'm not miserable either, it's just...not It, right? And I did kind of think fights like that are over like, my political conscience, or True Love(TM) not just being excited cause nobody questioned that three meals a day is still your right. "Got to. This America, man." I can haz monies, though. I told y'all the story of what truly made me a Simon fan, right? I mean, I really liked his book "Homicide" and not just find out if anyone Did It in a coffin(fuck no, although paradoxically, it hit such a nerve with the detective they asked that...but I digress) But anyway with his next book "The Corner" he went to Social Services...during his long wait, he noticed graffiti which I quote: Someone had very carefully written in Sharpie around the light fixture "All y'all people that work in here can go fuck yourselves." and that's when I knew David Simon knew what social services was like...he was also pleased that the punctuation was correct as written and noted it in the book, which I loved even more.

Oh, man I'm in a bad mood for no good reason. I was feeding the baby when dinner needed to be preped. So, Mom did it, and she doesn't listen. Nothing was done the way I wanted it, and I feel like I'm ready to have a totally disproportionate meltdown. I perhaps have some control issues.

Or maybe you are flooding with hormones on a daily basis.

That's not to discount the emotions, it's just to note that avoiding meltdowns is trickier at the moment.