I sent my therapist a really long emtional email entailing who knows what . At least I thought I did.

I hadn't heard back from her so I went loking for it and it's not there, not in drafts, not in sent , no where. I don't know what happed. So I sent her another saying I cant stop crying I can't ddrive. And I'll try to send another.

This day sucks.

I'm sorry this day is sucking so hard, askye.

I'm sorry, askye. I hope your therapist gets back to you soon.

Please excuse me, I keep doing this, and here I am again -- stopping in with a bunch of questions, then vanishing. But you guys have the answers nearly always!

I'm hosting a couple whose house burned to the ground in the Valley Fire in Lake County, Calif. - none of the 1,800 Cobb Mt. residents have been allowed to go see if their houses are there or not, but reports are that the entire neighborhood went up in flames. I've helped them get clothes, shoes, etc. via next door dot com, and neighbors have been really generous. They still need big items to help with the clean up, when they can get up there -- even if they don't stay, all homeowners are obligated to clean up the site.

My question is, since I've never done this, what's the best fundraising site? indie gogo? go fund me? other pay pal?

Maybe Crowdrise.com is one to look into. When I signed up to donate for a camp for kids with heart conditions it said it takes a smaller percentage for admin costs than other fundraising sites. I have not really looked closely at them to compare.

Turns out I accidentally deleted the email. I sent another, and then ended up talking to her. I'm going to see her Thursday (after I see the caseworker) and talk about somethings. I was doing well and then I just got flooded with all these negative emotions and I couldn't deal at all.

I tried to deal and it went badly. Right now hte idea of just spending winter here is daunting.

I'm going to hold it together until Thursday and start a plan of action for moving to NC. It's not that Vermont is toxic for me like Tally was but it's just very lonely and isolating.

askye, I hate that the Vermont dream has turned out otherwise (while still extremely happy that it got you the hell out of FL!), but if the NC contingent can do anything to make the next stop less lonely, give us a shout! We're friendly and prone to get-together-ing!

Java cat, I have no advice, but much sympathy for those who've lost their homes. So terrible. When you do get a site up, maybe post the link in Beep Me?

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askye, what amych said - I'm sorry this hasn't worked out the way you wanted, but it sounds like the plan for your next step is a good one for you. Isolation is bad (I've learned, though I crave it). Much coping~ma to you! Such change is hard to deal with even without anxiety etc issues.

amych, are the NC Buffistas all located in the Triangle? In other words, if someone were to move to NC and wanted to be near Buffistas, would anywhere outside the Triangle be an option?

Thanks amych. Vermont has been good for some things but it just didn't work out.

And when I get to NC it will be in the Ashville area. I don't think that it's going to magically change anything but I'll be able to see my nephew and my mom and my brother. Hug them. maybe even work on my relationship with my brother who knows.

Togethering would be very nice.