Oooh, askye, I think you are definitely feeling too overwhelmed right now to make those kinds of decisions. You need a kind of sensory deprivation tank for a few days. Try to quiet things down and keep things simple.
Do you see any goats around? No, because I sacrificed them.
Willow ,'Showtime'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
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DavidS - Aug 27, 2015 9:23:47 am PDT #21361 of 30002
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
erikaj - Aug 27, 2015 9:48:32 am PDT #21362 of 30002
Always Anti-fascist!
Yeah, WS, I would hope I wouldn't reject a solid person for being a bad speller or something, or need them to be as far to the left as me, but there needs to be some commonality, especially since I can't be some stranger's athletic kitchen-table bang. It's embarrassing to be this old and have only been out with like, two-and-a-half people, lifetime(And the most serious one is officially ancient history) But I want it to feel right, not just get my stats up. But there is ableism in my head that tells me "Someone like me" can't afford deal-breakers.
EpicTangent - Aug 27, 2015 10:05:49 am PDT #21363 of 30002
Why isn't everyone pelting me with JOY, dammit? - Zenkitty
Drive-by to say I just uploaded the paperwork to the insurance company for my mom's home care. Fingers crossed and prayers sent that it gets processed quickly and correctly so it can be one less thing that I'm stressing out about!
Burrell - Aug 27, 2015 10:30:56 am PDT #21364 of 30002
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
I'm sorry it's so hard right now, askye.
And erika, we all have deal breakers, so good for you!
sj - Aug 27, 2015 11:24:13 am PDT #21365 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
ltc will not settle down for anything today and Mom is here but I miss TCG and wish he wasn't at work.
askye - Aug 27, 2015 12:24:32 pm PDT #21366 of 30002
Thrive to spite them
I don't know if I need sensory deprevation more as a No Decision time period. And then someone to cuddle iwth... like a giant teddy bear come to life, only not super depressed like the one in Supernatural.
I ate something but I think tomorrow I'm getting some chocolate milk and having fish sticks (already in my freezer) and mac and cheese (in the fridge) and chocolate milk. If I can't be a kid at least I can eat like one.
EpicTangent - Aug 27, 2015 1:41:17 pm PDT #21367 of 30002
Why isn't everyone pelting me with JOY, dammit? - Zenkitty
It's called Comfort Food for a reason, askye. Do what you need to do to take care of you.
WindSparrow - Aug 27, 2015 3:20:15 pm PDT #21368 of 30002
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
I'm sorry you feel so alone, askye. I wish that there were an easy fix for that feeling, but I'm afraid that the Platitude Police would have a serious case against me if I say much of what is popping into my head right now.
Yeah, erika, you get deal breakers.
erikaj - Aug 27, 2015 4:13:56 pm PDT #21369 of 30002
Always Anti-fascist!
It's not like I have many, but it still seems like a lot for someone with an "AS IS" sticker on her forehead. But I've also seen other women talk themselves into these horrible clown-show relationships(My college roommate married and divorced the same idiot twice before she could give up) because they don't want to be alone.
Steph L. - Aug 27, 2015 4:20:10 pm PDT #21370 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
because they don't want to be alone.
At my first job, I had a divorced co-worker who married her ex-husband because she was 23 and truly believed he was her only chance at getting married (even though she knew it was a bad idea at the time).
Even at the age of 22 I knew that was a damn shame. It's sad that people fall into the trap of thinking that a shitty spouse is better than no spouse. I understand how it can happen, but it's still sad.