The OB appointment went well. The doctor couldn't book the 10th so csection date is now first thing on the 11th.

Good luck on the move, Hil. Sorry to hear you have a migraine.

Also sorry to hear about the don't wannas, sj.

I really need to stop "cleaning" by shoving random things in drawers and boxes.

That's my forte! Although right now I'm going to suck it up and go mop the kitchen and dining room floors. They desperately need it.

Thanks, Burrell. I went to my appointment, lunch, Target, and Old Navy, which isn't bad for having a case of the don't wannas. Now, I plan on not moving off the couch until TCG gets home.

So I didn't make it to group therapy.

Well I went and got my hair cut and was miserable because it was supercuts and I got a stylist I don't like. Then I had lunch that was disappointing. I felt I could do the go and do therapy and be miserable.

I got there early and sat in my car(weather was actually cool) and tried to distract myself until I started having an anxiety attack and then I took klonopin and decided to go home. And then I wasn't ahving an anxiety attack and took a nap.

I think trying to go to group where I wreste with feelings of guilty, shame, inadequecy, jealousy, frustration and mental browbeating and defeat/resignation that are all triggered by other participants (not the therapy part) and then going to individual therapy to try and deal with those emotions are maybe not best. I don't know.

Good luck with the move Hil !I'm sure it will go great!

sj ! you're ltc is going to be here on the 11th!! So exciting

((((askye)))) It sounds like your group therapy is leading to all sorts of negative emotions without any compensating benefit. Might a different group be more helpful? Might group therapy just not be a helpful setting for you?

Askye, I agree with Fred Pete. The group therapy seems to be causing you way too much stress. Maybe this is something you need to reevaluate with your therapist.

Well this is the support group for the outpatient program I did. I could try switching to the other day it's offered.

The two big issues are: 1) there are a couple women in the group who are in their 60s. So I see them and I just feel a sense of defeat -this is all I'm ever going to be and stuff like that. 2) There's a woman who I have a personality conflict. She's bubbly (but kind of fake bubbly) she seems to get it, all she talks about are the positive changes that have gone on. I've probably blocked out anything she's tried that didn't end with her not handling something well or struggling. It makes me feel jealous and inadequate. Plus she talks a lot. I swear if we were told "Use one word to describe why you are here" she used 20 to start her preamble over why she's picking the one word.

Definitely try switching to the other group. Maybe it will be a better fit.

I was in a support group for a while...it was good, at first, but it definitely stopped helping.

The movers got all my stuff, and I got some falafel, then went to the hotel where I'm staying for the night and fell asleep for about four hours. My head is hurting a lot less now, though the headache isn't totally gone. Tomorrow, going to go back to my old apartment in the morning and clean up some stuff there, then drive to Fallingwater, then to Morgantown to stay the night. Then Saturday, driving to Cincinnati. And possibly staying at a hotel for the first few days, because the electricity in my new apartment won't be turned on until Monday.