"Yes, I'd like to start the new treatment ASAP and BTW, I've made an appointment with someone who I hope will be more responsive."

I'd phrase it "I've made an appointment with someone who has fewer distractions from prompt patient communication" or something. It acknowledges he's busy but also reinforces that his busyness is hurting patients.

All the mojo for the treatment.

In addition to the other reasons, sometimes a new set of eyes on your records may result in new ideas that the current Oncologist hasn't considered.

To expand on the new provider issue, this comes to mind because of a friend. Paul had a stroke a few years ago and had just recently started making progress with walking more than he had in years. Family was surprised and encouraged, then last week he had another mini-stroke. When in the hospital with new sets of eyes they decided to start him on a couple of new therapies in light of his recent progress. If he hadn't gone to the hospital he would have just stayed doing the same thing for who knows how long. New eyes, new ideas.

Ginger, I think most docs totally understand that sort of thing. That's really far away and inconvenient!!

I need to clean and pack and get organized. But I'm sleepy. And still a little achy.

Also, just got a bill from DHL, and I have no idea why, so I need to call them and find out.

But mostly want to nap.

Ugh, Ginger. I wish I had more than that, but I don't think anything I can say would make any of this better. I hope the new oncologist is the best thing possible for you.

Hil, have you ordered anything from overseas lately? It may be customs and duty fees. It seems to be hit or miss whether a particular shipment is examined for valuation and duty purposes. It's hit or miss if I get them when I order something internationally.

Hil, have you ordered anything from overseas lately? It may be customs and duty fees. It seems to be hit or miss whether a particular shipment is examined for valuation and duty purposes. It's hit or miss if I get them when I order something internationally.

Nope. Last time I did was March.

I called. This bill was from a collection agency, not from DHL themselves. It was from the thing I ordered in March. I'm positive that I never got a bill from DHL, and I definitely never got anything saying that they'd send it to a collection agency, but I'll pay it.

Ginger, definitely time for a new doctor.

Ginger, I'd go with "I've decided to make a change to a doctor who is geographically closer to my location." or something if you dont want to get into the not responding part.

I have bills to pay that I have to deal with. I called the disability insurance and talked to the auditor guy who was leaving me a message. Basically they extended my full disability until June 1 and then they are going to fax over information request about the return to work. At some point the money is going to run out but at least it's something.

I also had my yearly review, I got a good marks except on a few things and instead of getting 5 (the max) I got a 4. The sales manager said either he or the store manager talked to the district manager and have set up an "shell" full time position in the computers department so that 1) my job will be tehre for me and 2) they have enough hours.

Overall today went really well. I made it through work , didn't feel stoned, and was able to take care of things. The idea of being on the sales floor seems daunting so I talked to the sales manager about that and he said if I came back full time but wanted to stay in the warehouse they would make that happen. I could always transfer back to the salesfloor.

I also bought a giant stuffed very soft penguin as a self soothing tool. There was a koala and I loved them when I was a kid and I almost got it, but I was standing in Toys R Us, petting it and instead of being calming I was getting anxious. So I picked something I don't have childhood associations with.

I'm still trying to get my head around the Complex PTSD diagnosis. I guess it seems right. I don't know anymore.

But I didn't have an anxiety attack at work and I only felt slightly annoyed and that was a reasonable thing. Howver I'm still thinking "just get through Wednesday and I'll have plenty of time to recuperate" so not quite ready for 3 days a week yet.