I can't sleep again. Well I haven't taken my medicine, I'm still processing stuff.
Talked to my psych nurse practitioner. She wanted to see me next week but I won't see her until the 7th. We're going to reduce the Lamictal and then at some point reduce the Ambien.
We talked about what happened today and how I've felt depressed and irritable and stuff. She brought up the Complex PTSD diagnosis again, but this time she explained what symptoms I was having that made her think it was that instead of Bipolar disorder. One of them is that when I get irritated or mad even though I have an extreme reaction (that I don't act on but still have the feelings) it's triggered by something rather than just coming out of the blue.
We also talked about work and she asked me what job I'd like to have and I coulnd't tell her. It's a question I hate because I never feel like I can give a good answer -- work in a library because I like books? My hobbies come and go but no real attachment. And the detachment from myself and also from other people is another thing that she feels points to the diagnosis.
I read the criteria for it and most of it fits but the bipolar fits too. So I don't know. Maybe it's both.
But the DBT will help and I was kinda angry at my therapist over my session and wanted to find another one who specializes in DBT but I think the type of work that she does is better for what I need. Maybe.
Making decisions right now is not my strong suit.
Tomorrow I go to the DBT group and then to see my GP becuase she wanted to follow up from the hospital visit and while I'm there I have to remember to ask her to check my right ear it's been bothering me. like at the tail of end of when I had the ear infection.
Ugh, twitter man, you don't get to base your argument on "Me and Folks I know" and then complain that the the argument in The New Jim Crow is one-sided, you persistent pothead idiot.(Is my fault for again underestimating how people cling to their own stupidity. Also, he fought the law and the law won--apparently it has left him with more time on his hands than even I have. Wish you'd pulled this crap on ita--but she might not have been dumb enough to wade in.But if she did, she'd shut your ass up.
Hee hee hee hee, I just paid off my car loan. Whew!
Congrats, WindSparrow!
Erika, I'm sorry your writing hasn't found the right editor yet.
so I have a facebook page for my Second life alterego (seems the best way to put that) and normally it's just comments on friends pictures...and well a few of us are in an epic poke back war (I know how FB intended it but we're using it like some were game of tag).
Anyway a few people also use their RL accounts since, technically, having anything other than your real name on FB is against TOS but I think that's a shitty rule and do what I want.
I'm getting somewhere I promise. One of hte people who posts under her real account shared one of those things about how the Confederate flag doesn't glorify racism and people who want to get rid of it are tryign to take "our" way of life away from us and blah blah.
So cribbing of the Atlantic article I basically quoted the most blatant parts that mentioned slavery. I have no idea what the reaction will be and maybe I should have just let this one pass. But read the damn declarations for succession - they all boil down to - the North is trying to take away our way of life and livelihood and that means slavery.
askye, I think you were right for saying something. I think too many times those of us who are white and trying to not be racist settle for simply rolling our eyes and feeling uncomfortable about other white people who insist that some racist thing they want to do is not racist. It's hard to speak up, but necessary.
Echoing WS, I think you were right, too, askye.
And congrats on owning your car, WS!
askye, I think you were right for saying something. I think too many times those of us who are white and trying to not be racist settle for simply rolling our eyes and feeling uncomfortable about other white people who insist that some racist thing they want to do is not racist. It's hard to speak up, but necessary.
YES!! I am shamefully very, very bad about it. Many props to you.
