I am on day three of a migraine. I left work early on Saturday, was totally useless yesterday, and had to call in today (effectively screwing over my whole company, since we are so small). I just couldn't face working outside in 96 degrees and high humidity, an hour from home. I have deployed the heating pad, muscle relaxants, an Epsom bath, Alexander technique, acupressure, and herbal relief. My PT can't see me today; I think I'm going to try acupuncture.

This sucks. It's an alignment/ muscle tension thing, exacerbated by hormones. I rarely know what prompted an episode specifically, and rarely know exactly what makes it go away. Pretty sure I have a mild form of EDS. I think strengthening is a key to reducing my pain levels, but I haven't found the time or energy to do that consistently. Also, exercise sometimes triggers a problem on its own.

I could find less strenuous work, but sitting at a desk is even worse for me than what I do now. I've thought about making a career change to bodywork, specifically AT, but the closest school is in Austin and it's three years full time, with probably not great earning potential on the other end. Feeling pretty frustrated and down about it all, right now. BLAH.

I'm leaning toward one who is, on the plus side, a woman and young, but, on the minus side, new to Kaiser and therefore not familiar with the Byzantine inner workings.

She may appreciate your advanced knowledge of those inner workings. Change can be a good thing with the set of new eyes.

So I just had to challenge my great niece with her defense of the Confederate Flag. I really try and stay out of these things, but calling people suggesting it shouldn't be flown at the capital "ignorant of history" is just too much for me. Sigh.

{{smonster}} May relief come very soon. Acupuncture is wonderful for many, including me.

It's our specific LACK of ignorance about history that compels us to call for that damned flag to be taken down.

Smonster, that really sucks. I am sorry.

I need hairpats. Today is my first ever appointment with a psychiatrist. Who comes highly recommended, and I'm sure will be able to help with my anxiety, insomnia, and the hellacious mood swings as perimenopause bears down on me. But I'm nervous.

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I keep thinking I need to talk to a professional, but I don't want to go to the trouble of the arrangements and get someone who doesn't mesh with me. The selection of mental health professionals in Utah County are not is not as deep as what's available in the great Northwest.

pat pat, Jilli. Shrink ~ma.

Connie, if you really feel like you need one, then you should give it a try, but please don't let it totally discourage you if you don't click with the first one. Or the second. I know I should be more encouraging, but, I've only ever had one really good shrink, and it's not the one I'm seeing currently. I'm only still with this guy because I don't have the spoons to find another. Does your employer have an EAP program? That might help.

Not my psychiatrist, but my general PCP was great when I came in with all my perimenopausal woes. She was a bit older than me at the time, so she completely got what I was going through and helped reinforce to me that I did not have teh craxies. I didn't end up seeing a psychiatrist until the anti-depressant she put me on unearthed some other long standing problems which she was not qualified to handle. A good shrink is a real boon, too. As is a good therapist! I really couldn't have made it through the past two years out without having mine work in tandem.

Jilli, all the hairpats. I hope you get what you need from the appointment.

I'm sure I'm late on this but hair pats Jilli. I hope the pdoc can help you find a medication to feel better.

So I went to work again. Achievement staying when I wanted to leave unlocked.

Unfortunately I stayed up late so I got up late and I didn't take my meds until right before I went to work so I was in a fog most of the time. I was supposed to downstock (figure out what needs to be put on the shelves and put it out) . It was hard with the brain fog, then we were short handed and so I had to help 2 customers one I didn't ring up but I had an anxiety attack after dealing with her. So I took my PRN klonopin, which didn't help with the fuzziness and I ended up at the back door acting semi like security for the last hour (which is where I ended up helping someone else).

My official supervisor wanted to talk to me but there was no time. I have to make sure I go to bed early enough on Tuesday I can take my meds, even if i just take them and go back to bed and nap for a bit.

I see my therapist tomorrow and I think I see my psychiatric nurse practitioner on Wednesday I'm goign to talk to her. About the mental fuzziness and also that since increase the Lamitcal I've felt depressed and not better like when I first started taking it.