Ginger, I don't think the vet will think you are a bad pet parent.

Andi I'm glad Harvey is being affectionate when the medical supplies are out of sight.

I went to the grocery store and I guess I compromised on some stuff. Got into a weird argument with the cashier. I picked up some grapes because I think they were on sale for $1.99/lb which is good price, especially for black grapes. There was one small bag and I weighed it and the scale said 1 lb. Okay great.

But it rang up at $3.99/ lb and was really almost 1 1/2 lbs which was way more than I wanted to spend on grapes. I told her I mis read the price and I didn't want them. She told me others were on sale, I said yes, I realized that but I misread the sign and I don't want these. Rinse repeat three times before the bagger said "just void it".

I feel like I'm terrible at communicating with people.

Also got really anxious and was chalking it up to I don't know why this is what it's going to be like tomorrow (!!) when I go back to work.

But then I thought about it - it was loud between the music and all the people talking. There were some chaotic situations with large-ish families and aisles crammed with stuff and too many choices.

I won't be dealing with that tomorrow. There will things that might trigger my anxiety but the two situations aren't the same.

askye, it doesn't sound like you were the one with the communication problem in that situation.

I went to Trader Joe's today and various other errands with TCG. They did not have the beet hummus in stock. I'm beyond exhausted now, and I feel like I have suddenly gone from big to huge.

It probably was but I was talking to Will and trying to tell him..something and I had a hard time remembering the order in the days something happened Given how little stuff is happening that's understandable but I just went quiet and blank mind and he was able to figure out what I was trying to say.

It's not constant and taking the lamicatl at night I think has helped but it's annoying.

Tuesday is my birthday. I get to spend it at my therapists and then. I don't know. I was thinking of going some place decent for lunch and then see a movie but it just seems so ...sad to do that all alone.

I hate when I don't have time to keep up with Bitches and Natter. I miss so much.

{{{{{Buffistas}}}}}}

Tep, Tim looks awesome in his pics. Jealous!

askye, I wanted to chime in on the non-supportive group situation. They never work for me because there is always someone who dominates the group and hijacks everything and I have never seen a moderator who could or would rein that in.

I have to leave soon to go to work. I've taken my medicine and I have to say if I didn't have the klonopin I'm pretty sure I'd be a crying mess right now.But it's just anticipation anxiety. Once I get there and get busy I'll see how I do. Four hours. I can do it. If not I have PRN meds to get me through.

You can do it, askye! Enjoy your successes.

Have a fairly decent day, askye. I wanted to say "have an excellent day" but I realized that while I have faith in your excellence, we cannot rely on the rest of the universe in that regard.

askye, sending tons of ~ma that you have a good day at work. You can do this!

We're doing our annual Father's Day brunch this weekend, and I'm feeling kind of weird about it. Last year we still had the brunch despite the miscarriage, and it was just the most awful day ever trying to stay positive and entertain people when all I wanted to do was hide in my room and cry. It just feels weird a year later to be doing the brunch again, and to be pregnant but under much different circumstances. I'm not sure if anything I said made any sense, but I just needed to get it out somewhere.

On a completely different subject, what does one do with garter belts that are too small for your waist circumference? I'm trying to declutter and I have a bunch that are in great condition that are either small/medium or medium/large, but I can't decide if they're too icky of a thing to donate.