Hil, I'm holding out for Plan A to work out exactly as you're hoping, but if it comes down to it, I'd be honored to help any way I can on your programming path.

Thanks. My programming skills right now are kind of scattershot -- I've done enough math involving graph theory and things like that so that I'm totally comfortable with stuff like algorithm run time and search algorithms, and I tend to pick up programming languages pretty quickly, but there's no one language that I can say that I'm really good at -- I can get Python to do what I want it to do, but I know there are better ways to do a lot of it, and it's been years since I've really used C and C++. I'm working through the Free Code Camp tutorials now -- got through HTML and CSS pretty quickly, since those were fairly basic and I've seen them before, then learned some jQuery, and now I'm working through the JavaScript sections. Even if I do get an academic job, I'm going to try to finish this program, because I'm having fun with it, and, after you finish all the tutorials, they match you up with non-profits that are looking for people to put together websites or apps for them, and doing something useful would be good.

Very cool! I'd seen the name Free Code Camp before, but I haven't really looked at what they do until know. The nonprofit angle is sweet.

They try to encourage you to do some of the exercises with pair programming through Screen Hero, and they've got a chat room set up where you can look for people to pair with, but I tried that earlier today, and there were about ten of us there, none working on the same exercise, and most of the exercises just take a few minutes to do, so even if you ask "Someone want to work with me on 16?" and then someone responds five minutes later, you might be done with it already. It's a good idea, but they need to work on the logistics a bit more.

I'm hoping I get the job in Cincinnati.

Me too!

I really wish that places that decided that they aren't going to hire me would actually tell me that, so that I'd know what options are still in play. There are a few places where I had a Skype interview and then went for an on-campus interview and never heard from again.

Hil I have someone who has encouraged me to try coding but hadn't heard of Free Code Camp before and when I showed it to him he was like "yeah that's exactly what you want to do" but right now I'm working on the Codecademy stuff.

The meds have made it hard to concentrate and grasp stuff so I haven't looked at it in a bit. I'm going to do some of the shorter intro projects in HTML and CSS. I'm enjoying it so far. Ruby has been tough but I tried that when the meds changed.

I am up way past my bed time. I need to be in bed at 10. I missed that by a mile. Although I took my meds. Last Thursday I forgot to go ot group, this thursday I have to remember. I put it in my phone calendar and my therapy appointment. Which I messed up and that freaked me out.

Anyway...I have some decisions to make. Go to this place that has drop in stuff, chill and hang out, and some activites geared towards people who have mental illnesses, transitioning from homeless to homes, or have other struggles. They have Peer Support where you can just sit and talk, writing group, yoga, stuff like that. I want to getr some more information before I show up.

I also need to figure out if I want to continue with my current therapist and her form of therapy or find someone who specializes in DBT and work with that. I'll be talking to soemone about that Thursday.

Tomorrow I have to contact work. I'm going back, if the schedule will permit. 2 days a week, preferably Mon and Wednesday for 4 hours each day doing downstocking (putting stuff on shelves and making sure they are full). My therapist pushed for three days but I was finally able to articulate that I'm worried that I wasn't able to get through 2 full days before trying to do three days is going to add stress. There will be stress no matter what I do but at least if I can get through 2 days and I'm able to tolerate the anxiety (or it goes away) I can build on that and not feel like I keep flaking out on my job.

I don't want to work register because of the congntive ...impariment is not the right word...slowness from the meds. And I'm not ready for the sales floor because I want to be busy, being busy means being distracted. Plus I don't want to struggle to articulate things to customers.

I'm trying not to let this feel like a step back but a skill ful thing.

So I'd go work Monday, invidiual therapy Tuesday, work Wednesday, group Thursday. And the figure out how to fill the other days and not get anxious about the gap between working on Wednesday and Monday. because that can cause me anxiety.

Sorry if that's rambly I took my ambien and klonopin. I should be in bed.

Hil I think you should hold out for a job that's either in a beter location for you or a better academic fit.

It seems the Detroit job is bad on both counts. Maybe if the academic side were better trying to deal with the winters would be worth it but it sounds like if it's too close to what you've been doing and where you've been living you'll be unhappy.

askye, rest and peace and love to you.

I (unofficially) got the job in Cincinnati! Still has to go through some administrative stuff before it's official, but that's just some people signing some forms.