You know your weight can fluctuate quite a bit during a day. I don't think a change of 1 lb actually means anything.

Well, shoot. That doesn't really make sense to me, either, though. If it's gonna store excess as fat, why would it take a week to do it? I have no idea why my body does anything.

I don't know why my body does anything it does either.

What lisah said.

Yes, also what lisah said. If you want an accurate reading, weighing at the same time every day (or the same time once a week if you want to make yourself less crazy) can help.

Tea:

While we're on the subject of food, this GD diet is hugely expensive and we're constantly running out of everything. I've decided what I need is an uber type service where instead of picking me up someone else goes to Trader Joe's, Wegman's, Wholefoods, whatever other market doesn't deliver and picks up what I need. Because sometimes Peapod doesn't have everything I need, and I don't have a lot of spoons at the moment.

askye, I'm glad you're heading home! And also Zen, Sarah -- we are all having depresso/anxiety episodes.

I'm clawing out of mine, but for the last almost 3 weeks, I was just down and out. The house was chaos, it was unfamiliar (not "Mine"" feeling yet), I couldn't find half the things I needed, the one car we have left was broken for most of that time, so I was trapped, and Dan had to work for home for a week and a half, couldn't get to yoga, didn't exercise, clean, organize, work, look for work, shower (much.)

But a few days ago, it started to lift, so Things Are Getting Done, and I am still a little "eh" but it's a wee "eh" and not a massive "FML and Fuck You All Too."

And it has only NOT rained for 2 total days here in three weeks. Jesus. Today is warmer and sunnier, so I'm going to throw down some mulch, weed whack and wash the outdoor table and chairs. And the very, very muddy dog. It's rained so much it's seemed an act of futility, but he just too gross to let it go anymore.

Speaking of dogs, Arthur is excavacting a HUGE hole by the concrete pad the AC is on. There might be a critter down there, and I don't want to hurt maybe-critter or Arthur, but any safe suggestions to get him not to dig?

Strix, I'm glad you're beginning to feel better. It's been pouring here for 3 days and I've already had enough of it, and I know it isn't nearly as much rain as others have had to deal with recently.

any safe suggestions to get him not to dig?

t laughs hysterically

I have found ways to keep dogs from digging in specific spots -- for example, all my vegetable plants have tomato cages -- but I've never found anything to prevent the random doggie urge to dig to China. For a hole next to a concrete pad, sometimes putting rocks in the hole will discourage either the dog or the critter.

Saw my therapist today. She didn't have a concrete plan but I think there was a miscommunication between the the triangle of me, her, and the social worker at the hospital. It was kind of like playing a weird game of telephone.

However, I got a call from one program they were looking at for me it's a peer based support thingie for about 3 weeks you meet with 2 people who are mentors and also have successfully navigated their mental health. (which I assume means they are very functional). It doesn't cost anything! And I meet with them for the first time Thursday (he was going to do today but I ran out of spoons and couldn't ). So there's that.

There was an offer to come to my house which I was hestitant to do - it's a mess there's a weird smell (not as bad as the car but still weird) but then he was like "you can come to our office" and I was like "great! let's do that" also on the table was meeeting at a coffee shop but for the first one but no. Especially since I'll probably cry.

But I got out! I went to the book store ! I bought 2 trashy magazines, well In Touch and People...I don't know for some reason I wanted to read dirt on the Duggars. Might be bad for my mental health who knows!

Also ate lunch out. I had red meat! I went to the grocery store and picked out the food I WANTED to eat for the next few days. It's life's little luxuries.

Yes, also what lisah said. If you want an accurate reading, weighing at the same time every day (or the same time once a week if you want to make yourself less crazy) can help.

Yeah, I do that. Every morning, same time, taking into account normal hormonal fluctuations so i don't freak out, and then log it into my Fitbit. This one-pound drop seems to be part of the overall pattern of trending slowly downwards with ups and downs as I go. But what's weird to me about it is that it seems to have nothing to do with WHAT I eat, only how much.

Seeing the graph of my weight change over time is freaky. I think I could translate it into an infrared wavelength.

eta dang, I can't type