In my life by far the most desperately lonely time has been while I've dated someone.

Change that to while I was married, and you have me. Then I feel ridiculously guilty because while I might have been lonely at times, he's gone forever. And I'm not so lonely anymore.

I'm home.

One of the nice Mental Health Tech's walked me to my car. I was like "no no I'm fine" and he was all "really it's shift change so I like being off the floor when it happens".

Good thing because I made an unpleasant discovery in my car. I went grocery shopping Friday and I didn't get all the perishables out, let's just leave it at that. Nothing...leaked...but he took the stuff to throw out for me and was cool. "No really you should see the stuff I have to deal with, way worse than this" . It was underground garage so not sitting in the direct sun but I rolled down the windows and wandered a bit while things aired out.

It's raining now otherwise I'd have the windows down.

Found out he wants to draw for comicbooks and makes a few things on the side --- like little panels based on his D&D campagains. He hadn't heard of Dork Tower so I directed him to that (I thought he would find it funny) and also told him to look into webcomics. I wasn't promising it would be easy but away to get his ideas out there and maybe get some attention.

Glad you're back home, askye!

(nods and points to Zen saying the socially appropriate thing) Yes. That, what she said.

thinks Man, I'm finally learning how to say socially appropriate things!

I finished yet another interview, and now I'm at yet another airport, waiting for a plane. Another hour to wait.

So, I've been in a deep blue funk for a little while. The last four days or so, I've eaten nothing but crap. Burgers, fries, cupcakes, frozen pizza, whatever was easy, just inexcusable crap. No exercise. I got on the scale this morning with trepidation and. I lost a pound. Is the universe just screwing with me now? It's not supposed to work that way.

If you were eating what you wanted but less of it, then yes, you would lose weight.

Zen, if you're anything like me the crappy eating will catch up with you a week later instead of immediately.

I apparently have a new provider for my medical supplies. I just spoke to them and they seemed nice and efficient on the phone, but I remain skeptical based on past experience.

If you were eating what you wanted but less of it, then yes, you would lose weight.

plans diet of Ding-Dongs and Twinkies

Zen, if you're anything like me the crappy eating will catch up with you a week later instead of immediately.

Well, shoot. That doesn't really make sense to me, either, though. If it's gonna store excess as fat, why would it take a week to do it? I have no idea why my body does anything.