I'm sorry, askye. I hope you can talk to someone soon.

I'm home. I should have done errands, but ltc is attacking my back. I have four doctor's appointments next week. I'm reserving Tuesday for mainlining television.

Things which are not terribly motivating: seeing new job postings for positions that I applied to months ago and never even got an interview.

I am being an anxiety ridden drama queen. At least that's what it feels like.

Also I have to give another urine sample becaue they left mine to sit too long earlier.

Saw the psychiatrist and resident also the social worker today.

Conversation with social worker went something like - disability is an option, it's not a great option, you'll probably get denied, you need documentation and lots of it, but you should get more info, just incase.

Psychiatrist is like -disability is not a good fit (in her opinion) I just need to go back to work and learn how to manage my anxiety and it will get better. Also she doesn't think I need any program post hospitalization except the therapy I was planning on doing.

Not really sure what to think. I'm staying in my room tonight May eat in here.

Hil it sucks the jobs are back up -- can you reapply? Do you want to reapply?

Universe -Hil needs an awesome job, give her one!

Lots of people get denied disability and have to appeal. There are lawyers who can help you with that if you go that route.

More often than not, actually.

I was "lucky" enough to end up in the hospital while my application was being reviewed. Someone made it known I was going to be denied if it wasn't for the hospitalization.

Also, the you need to learn to suck it up and deal with it without any practical advice on how to do that from a mental health professional really pisses me off.

It took five years from Hubby requesting disability to a judge finally saying "Yep, you're disabled." If you can afford it, get a lawyer as soon as you can. They'll do all the legwork for you.

edit: I don't know if it made a difference, but our case was the last one of the day, the summary of Hubby's condition was a two-inch-thick binder, and our lawyer cheerfully offered to go through the five file boxes of documentation if the judge had any questions. The lawyers who advertise on TV can be very effective.

I think I'm going to start with just figuring how to get info from providers and find out how far back I need. I have a past strewn with therapists.

I just remembered that TCG is not coming right home after work. So, if I want to eat dinner anytime soon, I need to do something about that myself.

Hil it sucks the jobs are back up -- can you reapply? Do you want to reapply?

I can, but I'm not sure I want to. Now that I look closer, I see that it's the same school, but now they're advertising for a one-year position, rather than a multi-year one, and I really don't want to have to do the whole job search thing again next year.