I am having a super hard time adulting today. I started the Lexapro exactly 2 weeks ago, and I know that's too soon to notice any improvement, but I was still hoping to see some. (And also, the headache from it can go away any fucking time now.)
I leave tomorrow for the quick trip to Chicago, and while I CANNOT WAIT to have dinner and see AoU with Buffistas, I really can't handle 2 trips in 7 days. Two flights, 2 strange beds, 2 situations full of people (not Buffistas) that overwhelm this introvert, 2 instances of being yanked out of my comfortable routine.
I wouldn't like this even if my brain were working at optimum performance, but it sucks in an epic way right now. (Plus, my former Mean Boss is also a freelancer for the AMA who will be at this meeting; it turns out we are on the same damn flight, which is really empty, so she's going to want to sit with me and talk, which ruins my plans to read my Harry Dresden book in an Ativan haze. Bah. But at least I can ditch her for the evening.)
And I have a bunch of work to still do today, and receipts to enter, and I need to run to the library to pick up the aforementioned Harry Dresden book. And pack (though not much, because it's a super quick trip and we were told we can wear jeans to the meeting Friday, which means I am flying in jeans and wearing them the next day, so all I have to pack is a shirt for Friday).
And I'm a jackass who is walking another 5K Saturday morning, even though my flight gets back in Friday night. Have I had a chance to work out -- or even take a walk -- since the last 5K? No I have not, unless bowling counts as a workout (IT TOTALLY DOES).
Super stressed, the house looks like a bomb went off in it, and stuff just KEEPS HAPPENING. Family things we have to go to. Pets that need to go to the vet. Friends who are all, "Hey, didn't you suggest in FEBRUARY that we should get together for dinner?" Yes. Yes, I did. Get back to me in June.
it turns out we are on the same damn flight, which is really empty, so she's going to want to sit with me and talk, which ruins my plans to read my Harry Dresden book in an Ativan haze.
Oh ugh. That is totally not on. I hope you can somehow side-step this.
Oh ugh. That is totally not on. I hope you can somehow side-step this.
Heh. She JUST emailed me to tell me the seating chart looks pretty empty, so we can probably sit together. Whee. (That said, flying stresses me out a LOT, so maybe she'll be a good distraction from my fear.) And the flight is only an hour, so I can deal. I hope to god we aren't on the same flight home. (Which, now that I think about it, I can't even take Ativan for, because the flight is only an hour, and then I have to drive home because I'm leaving my car at the airport. Nuts.)
It's funny, but I think because we travel so much there is a definite etiquette around air travel for us and part of it is you would never ever try to sit together.
So I'm having a really horrified reaction to this even though it in no way involves me.
(Also on the arrival you wait for each other, share cabs etc, but on the return home the moment you are off the plane you are strangers.)
It's funny, but I think because we travel so much there is a definite etiquette around air travel for us and part of it is you would never ever try to sit together.
I approve that etiquette SO HARD.
It's funny, but I think because we travel so much there is a definite etiquette around air travel for us and part of it is you would never ever try to sit together.
Hah, I am brenda here. Though I did want/try to sit with my boss on the one flight we were on together, because she lives in Hawaii and I never see her. And because she's cool.
The one trip I had to travel with my boss was rather awesome, because she was super-cool, and rented a Mustang convertible for our conference and we went on desert rides in our free time in Phoenix. And drank. A lot.
It's funny, but I think because we travel so much there is a definite etiquette around air travel for us and part of it is you would never ever try to sit together.
YES, unless it is agreed upon beforehand with someone you like. Also awkward, when you are upgraded to First and your boss isn't. But it solves the problem quite nicely.
A lot of places have rules that keep multiple staff members from being on the same plane ... helps avoid some of that. Of course, it depends on whether those rules are being followed; one place I worked (years and years ago) had such a rule and, for one program, the entire senior staff was on the same plane. (FWIW, all went well and everyone made the trip safely.)
Steph, I suggest getting some GABA for flight where you can't take Ativan. I sometimes take GABA at night or when I'm super stressed and it helps me to relax without making me out of it. I don't know why exactly it works because I'm pretty sure it doesn't pass the blood-brain barrier, but it helps the muscles relax, and maybe that sends a message to my brain that it can relax a bit too.
