Yeah, it's time for something to mitigate the dread.

Steph, IIRC you have a great primary care doctor, who might be your first professional to consult, because he already knows you. (It's also possible anxiety could be a side effect of a medication?)

Especially if you feel like you can't tell Tim.

It's not that I feel like I *can't* tell him; I just don't want to lay all that on him.

Steph, there is often a number on your insurance card specifically for mental health services, and they can often recommend someone in your area who fits your needs. I'm sorry you're feeling this way.

Steph, IIRC you have a great primary care doctor, who might be your first professional to consult, because he already knows you.

Yeah, I should probably call my primary care doctor first. If I have a list of therapists on our insurance, he might be able to recommend/rule out some of them (he's done that in the past).

(It's also possible anxiety could be a side effect of a medication?)

I'm trying to think if I've added anything recently, but not really, other than taking sudafed more often than normal because of the pollensplosion. I know sudafed can cause the jitters, though it usually doesn't do that to me.

It's not that I feel like I *can't* tell him; I just don't want to lay all that on him.

Yeah, but I'm betting that's the anxiety talking too. Or at least influencing. Seconding the rec to talk to your PCP. You shouldn't have to feel like this all the time.

I'm trying to think if I've added anything recently, but not really, other than taking sudafed more often than normal because of the pollensplosion. I know sudafed can cause the jitters, though it usually doesn't do that to me.

I don't know about you but allergies can cause a sharp increase in my anxiety levels.

I don't know about you but allergies can cause a sharp increase in my anxiety levels.

I don't remember it ever happening before, but at this point I don't actually trust my memory.

Steph, you've already taken a big step -- you've spoken up. And I can only add repeat the advice about consulting the professionals.

More immediately, is there some activity that will give you a little boost? Even if it's something as simple as sitting in the sun (if it's sunny where you are -- it isn't here). With apologies to John Lennon, whatever gets you through the day, it's okay.

Tep, wow, are we in the same marriage? because it sounds like what I have with D (who also is ADHD Boy.) It's taken we almost 6 years to be able to go to him and say "I am having crazy anxiety. I am flipping out like a mammal in my lizard brain; will you rub my neck and let me talk to you?"

I've had to learn to flip the script, because I am used to being Strong Silent Woman -- if D was feeling these feels, would I want to know? Of course! Because a relationship is about when you can't crawl anymore, you find someone to carry you. I carry D all the time; is it fair to him to not be able to carry me when I need it?

It sounds a lot like GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) which is also what I have. I'm on Xanax at night, plus an etra 15 tabs a months for Generalized Wacked Out Stress Days. I am super high med tolerance woman, though, so this might not be what your doc prescribes. I only see my psych every three months now, and I went through a lot of 'em finding the right one, but find him I did.

It's hard to feel like you're the crazy one in a relationship -- I feel that way a LOT -- but really, everyone has their own brand of crazy, right?