Zen, get out of my brain cause I read GD the same way. Every. Time.

Glad you had a tech on your side, sj.

Zen, get out of my brain cause I read GD the same way. Every. Time.

Same here. And it usually fits perfectly. (I suspect sj plans this)

Sorry. No not planned. I am just lazy and so brain dead I can't even figure out what you're referring to.

There putting me on one pill a day because my morning reading is consistently too high. She said my daytime readings have been almost consistently perfect so if I need to cheat with a bite or two of something not so good every once in a while I shouldn't worry about it.

GD = g-d damned.

Also, sj, I'm glad that you have a little leeway for a treat now and then.

GD = g-d damned.

Thanks, I ended up figuring that out after I posted. That is not one of the colorful phrases I use. I was confused at first because I thought I was accidentally making a sexual reference because this is Bitches after all. TCG is concerned that one of ltc's first words will be the F word or a colorful Italian phrase.

I'm glad they're acknowledging your efforts and loosening up on you a little, sj.

I'm glad they're acknowledging your efforts and loosening up on you a little, sj.

Different people, different answers, but she did say I was doing a great job with the diet. She doesn't think it is the way I eat but entirely caused by my pregnancy hormones. My hormones mess with me every chance they get.

SJ glad things aren't so frustrating. And that you are able to follow the diet. I know you were worried about that.

I'm still cranky as heck about the diet, but so far it's been mostly manageable. I'm still finding it hard to actually leave the house during the day and figure out what to eat.

I didn't want to go to therapy today but I did, I stayed for all three parts. I haven't done my homework one of the parts it to examine a positive emotion = well there's soemthing about postive and negative emotions I don't even remember at this point.

Nothing positive has really happened.

I dealt with the company "case worker" for my leave which sucked becuase it turns out my therapist messed up the leave request and I didn't notice. So I had to try and get in touch with her, I need to get her to fix the date and it has to be sent back to them (via email or fax) by Thursday so I only have tomorrow and Thursday. I left a message for my therapist but didn't send her an email. I may send her an email. This means trying to drive up to Burlington, getting this done and then going and getting it faxed (I discovered my printer doesn't scan for some reason and I'm not replacing it). And I don't trust my therapist to scan it and email it the same day. I mean I'm sure she would but I'm paranoid.

I finally called Hartforda bout the short term benefits and after that I got a call back from teh "case manager" about ...something. She's got an accent and there's lots of call center background noise and I can barely understand her and she has trouble understanding me. So most of our phone calls have been trying to figure out what the other is saying. I finally asked if she could just email me because the phone calls are too stressful.

THAT took 3 tries for me to explain. Anyway the gist of hwat she was saying is they are going to be sending me the bills for the health insurance isntead of to Hartford becuas they haven't approved my claim.

I totally fucked this up and should ahve called them first but I honestly forgot about it until the case manager person said something. And I've been doing the best I can but it's just me trying to handle all of this.

Anyway, I got stressed out and upset because I'd talked to her, Hartford, and then her again about stuff and I just don't deal well with talking to insurance companies and tsuff. And she's saying (I think) that there's no reason to be upset and why am I upset which just made me feel even worse. I finally snapped "I'm on leave for psychatric reasons including anxiety I can't deal with this it makes me worse" and just with the "there's no reason to be upset." Lady I KNOW my rational brain gets that. The other part doesn't.

I kept repeating "I hve to go I have to go " and hung up.

Then cried for 20 minutes. I'm just messing this all up and I don't know how to fix things and I'm all alone and all of this was impuslive the leave adn the intensive outpatient and it makes me feel like I'm not able to make the proper decisiosn to take care of myself.