I'm home from work early. I had to leave, not physically sick but either anxiety or start of hypomania, don't know. Hven't been sleepign or eating. Know this is bad, couldn't stop moving, bouncing aroudn and when Iw was talkign so fast co worker couldn't understand me realized time to go home.

Cried. Supervsisor was nice. Supervisor who can be kind of a dick told me to take tomorrow off if needed. assistant manager was cooll, let me sit in the office until I was calm (ish) enough to drive home. If I was saying all of this in person iwouldn't have stopped for a breath. Wish it was warm out so I could run or walk or do something. Took a klonopin (not that it's prescribed that way but I found some extra from something still good so taking it) and I'm emailing my therapist to let her know.

Plus, Will and I might be breaking up. I don't know. 2014 sucks so far and this the year I'll be the answer to Life, the Uinverse and Everythign so it's supposed to fucking rock.

Sounds like it could be hypomania, askye. Good for you for knowing yourself. Take care, and please be gentle with yourself.

I wonder if that's exhaustion or let-down or something.

Andi, I'd bet that both are true.

Typo, the latest research I've seen found that eggs don't have a harmful effect on cholesterol levels in diabetics, and eating eggs helps with appetite control because they're satisfying. Egg yolks also contain lutein and zeaxanthin, which are good for your eyes. May I also suggest supplementing with bilberry and/or black current? Both have been shown to be very good for eyes.

Typo, I've read what Zen has read and strongly endorse the black currant suggestion. I have no knowledge of bilberry, but black currant, according to stuff I've read on the internet, is packed with good stuff. Plus? Yummy!

Tomales Bay

I wanna come! This winter is dancing on my last, decaying nerve.

So, I read on facebook that Westboro plans to picket Leonard Nimoy's funeral. I kinda want to buy a vat of popcorn and watch a live feed of that.

You don't mess with the Trek! Or a cultural icon.

Or, well, ANYONE ELSE, you hosers...is what I would say to the Westies if I was there!

askye, I'm glad you recognize the symptoms and contacted your therapist. I'm sorry things aren't going well with Will.

Typo, the latest research I've seen found that eggs don't have a harmful effect on cholesterol levels in diabetics, and eating eggs helps with appetite control because they're satisfying. Egg yolks also contain lutein and zeaxanthin, which are good for your eyes. May I also suggest supplementing with bilberry and/or black current? Both have been shown to be very good for eyes.

Good luck making dietary changes, Typo. I think they sell black currant concentrate at my local health food store. It is the kind of thing that is good mixed with some seltzer.

So, I read on facebook that Westboro plans to picket Leonard Nimoy's funeral. I kinda want to buy a vat of popcorn and watch a live feed of that.

I'm not sure they know what they're getting themselves into with that one.

I have been very slothful today. I feel bad about it, but not bad enough to clean the bathroom.

WTF reason does Westboro even have?? But, yeah, the Trekkies will have his back.

mental health~ma, askye. I hate that bouncy, can't sit still feeling, especially when nothing I do feels satisfying no matter how much effort I put into it. It's like when I go to the fridge and stand there frozen with indecision because I know there's nothing in there I really want. Ugh. I hope it passes quickly for you.

Oh my, syphillis is on the rise in PDX.

Did I tell ya'll about the time I talked to WBC at work? They were trying to protest a Blazers game if Portlanders love anything more than our sportsball teams, it's any reason to gather in a protest-type fashion. WBC lasted about 10 min before they fled the huge crowds of dancing and singing Portlanders. This cell phone kept calling 911 complaining that "violent" protesters were banging on their car...but they could never tell us where they were or what street they were on and kept hanging up and not answering on callbacks. Eventually they called and complained that they found a police officer who refused to help them. Never gave a name but I talked to three distinctly different voices from the same phone number with a kansas area code. Still waiting for the lawsuit against our police bureau.

I love that story. They should film it and show it every Christmas.

In other news of things that are delightful: anyone who didn't catch Lee Pace on the Mindy Project a few weeks back should totally check it out. I mean, if you like Lee Pace. And/or drooling over Lee Pace. Hubba hubba.

mental health ~ma, askye. It sounds like a hard place to be but it's so good you recognize it and want to make it better.

I think they sell black currant concentrate at my local health food store. It is the kind of thing that is good mixed with some seltzer.

I want this. And I'll use eye health as a fabulous reason. But mostly because it also sounds tasty.

if Portlanders love anything more than our sportsball teams, it's any reason to gather in a protest-type fashion.

And food trucks.

Damn, I miss PDX.