So My landlady's dad has an apartment for rent. I'm looking at it today. I could use some apartment~ma with this one.

Or just find an apartment that allows cats~ma in general.

askye, I hope you'll find the right place for you as soon as possible.

le nubian, wow indeed. And man, I need to get myself some bras (and sandals) too. Thing is, I absolutely resent shopping. It's a chore at best terms. But sometimes a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do, because current bras are killing me and I do need good sandals for the hell we call summer.

A good friend (and my co-worker. Well, not really a co-worker, but we share an office) suggested that what I'm going through is just the overwhelming sense of a break after dealing with so many shitty things for so long. That makes sense, I guess. I just have no idea why the sudden break from dealing with so many things doesn't feel good in itself.

I just have no idea why the sudden break from dealing with so many things doesn't feel good in itself.

Because now you are not shoving back all the stress to the back of your mind just trying to get from one thing to the next. You actually have the leisure to feel what you are feeling. {{{{{Shir}}}}}

I just have no idea why the sudden break from dealing with so many things doesn't feel good in itself.

I tend to think of it as the recoil from firing a gun. There's the action of pulling the trigger and the bullet being fired, which equates to the stressful situations as they are happening, which is followed by the recoil, which is the reaction *after* the bullet is fired. The recoil is now, when you have a break from the stressful things, but their impact catches up to you.

Not a perfect analogy, but it works for me.

Humm. That makes sense. Thanks, Steph and Windsaprrow.

I'm glad I have folks to explain me this stuff. I'm not cynical at all - I'm really not in touch with my emotions and have next to no idea what is going on. It's very confusing.

So now I'm just supposed to feel like this for a while, and it will eventually change?

So now I'm just supposed to feel like this for a while, and it will eventually change?

It will. The part that sucks is where you can't just speed it along because you want to stop feeling that way. Just feel your feelings and keep taking good care of yourself, and it'll pass.

Shir, Teppy and Windsparrow are wise. I hope the feeling passes quickly, and, in the meantime, take good care of yourself.

My mother has learned to text. Send help.

OK. That makes sense. And thanks. Though it feels a bit stupid to get stuck with an echo of a stress.

I also found that reading really helps me to pass the time and improve my mood. I'm reading books as if I'm 14 again and have all the time in the world to sink in them. Though thankfully, I read in English much faster these days. That could have been frustrating.

Oh, sj. I feel you. My mom knows how to text, but she hardly uses any punctuation. I get a lot of emoticons from her. Very recently, she also learned how to email. She really loves large fonts, colors, and changing them in between emails.

LeNubian, I went from a 44DD to a 40G when I had a bra fitting this winter. I need to get more new bras soon.

(((Shir))) Take care. And Teppy and Andi have wise words.

I've been bloating up a lot after eating toast. I fear I am verging on some kind of wheat/gluten intolerance. But it doesn't happen with flour totilla or bagels or pastries, but I definitely notice it everytime I have regular bread.

It will get better , shir.

sending you apartment Ma~~~ askye ( if it is a gargae apt - ask about the insulation between the celing of the garage and the floor )

my folks were in town this week end. I almost collapsed under the weight of the text mesaage I was getting form everyone. I have 4 hours a day when I am on th epublic desk - so no texting when up there . If I was able to answer I swear I would get 15 back.....