And now I am hungry!

Oy, erikaj.

In "take small wins when you can get them" news, I found a pair of black sweat pants in a dresser today that I have no memory owning. They fit perfectly and look pretty new. I do laundry at home and live alone. I can only assume that house apartment elves left them for me. Thanks, apartment elves!

Okay, I am posting this because I love you guys and am willing to show off my flaws, and by flaws I mean MAH BUTT. The official photos aren't back from my photo shoot yet, but the makeup artist was taking behind-the-scenes shots on her iPhone, and I found her on Instagram, and here is a picture of my Schoolteacher shoot: [link] That is a horrific angle for my ass, truly. At least, my ass in a pencil skirt.

That said, I don't otherwise hate how I look, which is, for me, HUGE, especially given that I'm wearing a pencil skirt and a fitted top tucked in the skirt. That is NOT an outfit I would have worn a year ago.

The actual official shots should be pretty good, because one presumes they're from a more flattering angle. But it was pretty cool to find this on Instagram.

You look great, ass included, and hey - you were an awesome client!

That looked like a lot of fun, Steph! I saw some of the pictures you posted on Facebook of your make-up for it and they all looked super.

I can't wait to see more!

Obviously, doesn't work in a regimented system with common exams across classes.

That's what we've got here. Plus, there's not too much re-ordering you can do with calculus. (Well, there are several sections that I'd like to re-order, or get rid of entirely, or introduce new stuff, but I can't do that, because every single one of these topics will be on an exam.)

I was talking to my mother about looking at jobs outside academia. She asked if I would physically be OK with a 9-5 office job. I'm not entirely sure why she thinks that would be more difficult, physically, than my current job, which requires standing up and teaching for three hours each day.

Hil, it sounded like one option you were considering was data analytics. The people I know who have migrated from mathematical psychology into data analytics work when they want and where they want. They solve problems and then hand the solutions to other to use on a routine basis. For them it is more flexible than academia.

I suppose that it depends who your work for.

I feel bad doing this here, especially since I'm not around as much as I used to be, but this is my safe space where I know I'm not going to be judged or have the busybodies all up in my business.

I'm less than a week into this deed in lieu process, and I already want to crawl into a hole and hide. I'm scared to death they're not going to accept it, and I'm scared that if they do, they won't waive the deficiency. Maybe my hardship is not hard enough, you know? KEMTGuy went to bed last night and I told him that I'd be up in a few. I just needed to be alone to cry for a bit. And I'm not sleeping. I just want to shove the keys at BoA and say leave me alone.